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25-11-2022 07:13 PM
25-11-2022 07:13 PM
Re: My Mosaic
I seen my case manager this morning. It was ok. She is concerned though about my safety. Sigh 😩
Then I seen my dietician. It also went ok, but at the end she told me that she is moving all her appointments to Telehealth next year (not too big an issue, but I do prefer face to face), but that she will also be charging a gap fee. She has bulk billed me for the last 2 years. And with seeing her fortnightly, I just won’t be able to afford it. I’m really disappointed. Sad. I really like her. She is well educated in EDs.
im still in a really depressed slump. I can’t seem to pull myself out of it. I can tell I’m not in a good way cause my personal hygiene isn’t ok. I’m normally a shower every day person, can’t stand not to shower. But at the moment I just can’t be bothered and go days without a shower. All I wanna do is sleep. Can’t wait for daughter to go to bed of a night so that I can then go myself.
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25-11-2022 07:23 PM
25-11-2022 07:23 PM
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It must be hard to find a dietitian who is well educated on ED's @Bow I hear how disappointing that is. Will you be able to drop back from once a fortnight so it's still manageable?
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25-11-2022 07:30 PM
25-11-2022 07:30 PM
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I really do hope the depression slump lifts. It’s hard to be in that mental headspace.
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25-11-2022 07:51 PM
25-11-2022 07:51 PM
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@creative_writer @Paperdaisy I may drop back to monthly and see how I manage that. She knows that I am on a pension, so doubt it will make any difference.
I have also enquired at another service that I seen pop up on Facebook recently.
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25-11-2022 08:13 PM
25-11-2022 08:13 PM
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26-11-2022 03:37 PM
26-11-2022 03:37 PM
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Do you look at your life and realise what a complete waste it is? I have zero motivation. I have laid in bed all afternoon. There are so many things that I could be doing. I’m tired of living like this. I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of being unwell. I wish the last attempt was successful. I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up. I wish to not be here
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26-11-2022 04:11 PM
26-11-2022 04:11 PM
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Hey @Bow, sounds like a rough time. Sounds like you're feeling a lot of guilt around resting today, which is a tough place to be. I know a lot of us have been in a similar place.
Do you think reaching out to someone for some support today could be useful?
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26-11-2022 04:32 PM
26-11-2022 04:32 PM
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26-11-2022 06:34 PM
26-11-2022 06:34 PM
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😩
I’m so sorry I’m such a waste of space. I am repulsed by the person I have become.
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26-11-2022 06:57 PM
26-11-2022 06:57 PM
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hey @Bow, we're here to listen. Like @creative_writer said, sometimes our mental can make us think things about ourselves and feel worse about our selves.
I'm wondering what you need to feel a bit better or remind yourself that these feelings will pass?
For me, I try to spend time with other people to distract myself or just say 1 thing I'm proud of myself for (even if it seems small). Not sure if that might help?