Dont let the black dog win. You have the right attitude. Sorry your family does not see that. I am in a similar boat. One can embrace the spirit of christmas in many small ways. I try and keep it real for me and I dont go overboard, My nicest experience this year was meeting a little group of very little children at the end of my street. The oldest a 5 yo was so full of the spirit of chritmas there was no way I could dissappoint him so I partied with them for 5 minutes.
There are non material ways to keep some sense of the generosity of the season. I guess you feel pressured by your partner's children. Keep it real for them too. My son and kids do not want to be bought, so presents are token rather than mind blowing. You will help them be better persons by just being YOU and sticking with your VALUES, even if your family does not see them.
Can you eat red meat? I had a gastric sleeve and I find when I'm low on energy it means I need to feed my iron levels. Red meat, eggplant and mushrooms, spinach and cherries with dark chocolate can help,
Checking in again. I had a win of sorts in the way of seasonal festivities. Months ago I bought a band t-shirt of my stepdaughter's favourite band. I gave it to her on Christmas eve to open and she was absoutely thrilled. Despite all her expensive gifts, she nominated mine as her favourite (even though it wasn't expensive) as she said it obviously had a lot of thought put into it (I had to import it from the UK and took a while to be delivered). It brought a smile to know my act of doing something nice for someone else was appreciated so much. Brought a smile to both our faces!
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