Lived Experience Forum

[outlander]

when do you find its time to go to hospital?

im debating whether its the right move for me

[Former-Member]

I've been a number of times and half have been really horrible, half have been pretty helpful.
Can I ask why you are thinking hospital? Have you talked to your doctor about it?
What are your pros/cons about going in?
And lastly, I'm sorry and I hope you feel better soon cause if you're considering hospital you must be feeling pretty bad. *hugs*

[STORMGRL101]

For me, I knew it was time for hospital when I felt completely overwhelmed and nothing I did could distract me from the intense urge to SH and I prepared a suicide note and had a plan to do it. If you think it's time I would say go. Stay safe @outlander ❤

[Former-Member]

I wanted to go last year because I didn't "feel safe",when I get distressed and severely depressed with severe SC thoughts.However I have now realised it's hopeless as I would go and feel ridiculous for the waste of resources on me and through experiences "help" makes you 20 times worse.Not to mention that I went into hospital in March for a three hour iron infusion and got a sore bum from the bed and couldn't wait to leave.lol! Most of all I have no faith anyone or their so called qualifications and have been nothing but humiliated by the counseling experience.Today I had one of my bad days where I'm distressed and question why I'm hanging onto a life that most times doesn't exist or is worth saving.I would have to travel hour and a quarter for a hospital as living in a small town,the gossip and my paranoia with privacy would finish me off

[outlander]

hi @STORMGRL101@Former-Member
yes unfortunateley it has gotten pretty bad
 
my mother is still int he dark about how bad it really is and i dont want to tell her.
the reason im thinking it as i dont really know any other options at the moment
i cant control my SH and its like an addiction
My suicide thoughts are gettin stronger and harder to ignore and i have been at the point where seriously thinking about making a plan and acting on it. even while i havent had a plan ideas have been swirling around
all i see now is SH and ways to do it and ways to cope.
i was going through my strategies today as to how to solve these urges and how to resist them
as iw as going through i could think of many ways i could self harm instead of focussing at the task at hand. everywhere i look theres always something i can find

my urges coem off so strong now that it actually hurts me, it makes me sweat and muscles cramp up and all i can think is i need to release something to help myself
 
i rung a helpline as i was havign these overwhelming thoughts and stonrg SH urges and do you know what they said to me? contact another helpline
i ahve spoken to my gp and both her, my nurse, and my psychiatrist and previous psychologist said i should be in hospital or something but i cant seem to do it
i had a chance to go to somewhere like what do they call it like a retreat or something
but i turned it down because im not insured and i cant afford it otherwise
 
even if i wasnt to go into hospital i think i need to do something

[outlander]

i dont kow how to control my distressed state @Former-Member

and i definently get the paranoia and gossip and im pretty sure i would be even more disowned by my family

i cnat bring myself to go but i think i do need abit more help even though i dont want it that much

[Former-Member]

Yes it's the strong SC thoughts that I feared and at times I feel at peace when I give into the thought of suicide,which my psychologist was concerned about.At times I hear a voice telling me I won't win.Its these concerns that scare you.

[outlander]

@utopia@Former-Member @oceangirl 

im wondering if you could give me some advice?

[Baboo]

can you ask a friend or family member to call 000 for you if you cant do it yourself?

[Baboo]

can you ask a family or friend to call the hospital for you to see if they can help you just for tonight?