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[saltandpepper]

And my son isnt here btw. Called my ex said mot to bring him here

[saltandpepper]

@Historylover Not sure i am. I've been ac unt of a person for a long time. Only recent years did i start working on that. Maybe trhis is what i get for being a cu nt

[TideisTurning]

Hi @saltandpepper, it sounds like you're going through a lot right now, and I'm sorry to hear how rocky the road has been for you. It sounds like being here on the Forums has been a good help to you, though I'd like to encourage you to reach out offline for support if what you're experiencing starts to become too distressing. Sane's Helpcentre is open until 10pm this evening if you'd like to speak to someone 1:1 non-urgently. I hope things improve for you very soon and sitting with you in the mean time. Take care 🌻 

[saltandpepper]

Thanks @TideisTurning i called my psychologist for ine on one talk but not sure if it helped.

[saltandpepper]

I know i shouod go to sleeo; and i tried before. But i cant. My brain is on fire. And honesty, i dont wantto wake uo tomorrow

[TideisTurning]

I'm sorry to hear that @saltandpepper. I'm a little concerned about how you're travelling right now, so am going to send an email to check in. 

[saltandpepper]

Its so heart warming thst you guys seem to give a shit when you don't even know m. The eoplenin my life, the peoppe i onow that know me, I don't feel like they care. I mean i know they care. But... not reallt. Not the way i widh they did. No the way where i really matter. How can strangers care but my friends famioy don't. I don't knownhow i should feel about that

[Appleblossom]

@saltandpepper  Sorry things are spiralling down.  Good that you made call about your son, but sad too.

I cannot buy into negative self talk. Sometimes self talk does become rehashing and self perpetuating.  People may not know how to do right, how to get started.  Those little steps may be like a foreign language.  There are AA approaches.  Tomorrow I am invited to a music event as an outreach for men in crisis, which will have a christian flavour,  When I told the person I had been socialised around homeless men, he figured I would feel at home.  There are so many different journeys, its not my place to judge, but you do not need to do it alone.  More I was trying to inspire you.  Dads are important.  Human, living dads.

My life has been about understanding why, and struggling to cope.   Not a lot of love came my way either.  

[Historylover]

You are, @saltandpepper.  Come on - have a rest tonight and start anew tomorrow.  

[Appleblossom]

On one level we do not know you, but maybe on some levels we do.  We are all so complicated.

@saltandpepper 

It has taken me a long time to understand the lack of love I received, and the lack of love given to my parents and others around me.  How can people be like that?  There are usually reasons.  There are times to worry about the reasons, and times to learn which way to go on our path ... in life.