ever wonder why

[Sophia1]

@maddison 

1800 respect National phone number 24 hours 

Make the call 

Keep your phone and charger with you at all times plus any keys for house and or car

Purse.. cards.. photos

mimimum

cats
do not write too much on phone

keeping it brief

[Sophia1]

You matter

always log out

delete browsing history and web data

[maddison]

Thankyou @Sophia1 @Appleblossom @tonys @I have been working with these agencies for a couple of months now. There are lots of people involved who know exactly what is going on. I am safe. I have a solid lock on my door. I am planning my getaway as soon as humanly possible. He does not know that I'm aware of his current ice use. He is fairly oblivious from what I can tell. I'm keeping everything to myself. Don't have to worry about my phone being spied on because he is unable to use technology. I am going to make phonecalls tomorrow/today to update services. I might call local police & let them know situation as well. THANKYOU very much for your concern

[Sophia1]

 It wanting to alarm you

never assume

they change and hide things 

I have had to get out not drugs alcoholic did not know and narcissist. Could and cannot be alone with him.

triggers my rescue mode

I volunteer

i will leave you in peace

take care

[maddison]

I understand @Sophia1 I am a rescuer too. I am thankful for all the support & encouragement I am getting on here. At the slightest instinct I feel confident calling police. And yes, they are very manipulative & hide things well. When I say I'm 'safe' - no of course I'm not. I'm taking the best actions & precautions I possibly can.

[tonys]

@maddison Thanks mate ,   hope you go to sleep knowing people are so close to you. Hope you saw @Appleblossom  checking in on you too.    You know how sometimes something is so perfect that you laugh.  her quote,   enough is enough bella.    perfect timing and perfect advice from her.

I've been around the block a few times but she built the block,   You wont get a whole lot of words but you can take what you get to the bank.   

But thanks to both of you and ,.....   change subject

My favourite sow bowled me over and i think ive cracked a rib or two.    She charged me when i got home and then did everything to stand on top of me.  Wet drooling snout like soggy squid all over my neck.   The big girl usually misses me, but this time shes lost the plot..  followed me around all day long.     Don't know   how but i might have to take her with me next trip.......   nah ..   but ill have to think of something.

Got the workers to stay back a bit and help me dye the goats,  and yes Maddison,  we did a couple of chooks just for you.         When i hatched the plan in my head it seemed so simple.

We are covered head to toe in hair dye !..    and i cant even laugh, ...  the ribs . It took a few beers and such ,  but we are well pleased with our handy work ...   Truck showed up to pick up sweet potato bins   Shook his head,    only thing he said was ,  very multi cultural  , 

Eyes ,....  I call em my eyes down days,   The book keeper sent heaps of pics of my house to the brain doctor,  and he had me figured as soon as i stooped through his door.    Finding the right person to check your dipstick is the most important thing you will ever do.   It hasn't changed my life,  just helped me understand it,  and the real work starts next year.   lots of miles to the city.     You just keep knocking on doors mate.

 You can tell i popped a cork.    to toast 2 things   ,    Your friendship and new beginnings,  and my pain,   dam  ribs.     I hope telling you about the farm     takes you away a little bit.   

Heres to sharing our lollies  ,  i reckon i could find a poem in that somehow ,   I will check in on  you first chance i get tomorrow.       Your friend and mate.    tonys moon base1

[maddison]

Yes, I understand. How many animals do you have ..30? That's what you need to do now. 0....K @tonys 

Miss you

[Sophia1]

Hello @maddison 

I need to let you know what happened during the early hours of the morning from my end to hopefully clarify.

I wanted to explain about my posts.

I was very frightened for you and tried the cloak and dagger approach.

I have had training in this area and part of that encompasses saying very little.

Avoiding leaving any trail, suggestion of person feeling at risk or planning to leave.

I was using my mobile phone in the dark as was in bed.

Hence did not make sense.

I had also taken a sleeping tablet!

What a recipe for disaster.

I had little sleep also.

Triggered my fear flight amygdala.

I cannot begin to imagine what sort of night you had.

I am hoping that this message does not leave a "ping" waking you up.

I should have not replied but could not stop my automatic go to help mode.

You have let me know that you feel that you have everything under control

.

Thank you for that. Much appreciated.

I will also write to you on my other thread only.

I am willing to support you if you want my help over there.

If you feel supported enough that is fine also.

This is about you not me.

I will graciously back away.

I am not sure how @wordman feels and want to respect his feelings also.

Hoping that you are okay @wordman 

Sending you reassuring thoughts. Sophia 1

I will also send a message to have my posts deleted once administration is back after the holiday period.

Lastly put you first and look after you.

Take care all.

[wordman]

+@Sophia1 Hello Sophia. Yes you are right, I did not sleep well last night. I read your post and found it to be very welcoming. I write to you in the hope you are receiving as much as you are giving. I found your words to be sincere and full of hope. There is no need to concern yourself for my sake. I am going very well. You are the one who is important. I have received a lot of feedback from many people on this forum. You all provided enlightenment in my life. How can i say this. ARE U OK. Please reply to me as soon as possible. 

Kind Love

Wordman

[Appleblossom]

@maddison Good to see posts from you.  Wishing you the best in making your getaway.

Thank you @tonys I appreciate your respect.  Often did not have words at the tip of my tongue and still prefer the keyboard over speech.  I did live a very wordy life for many years and am conscious of brevity, but I loved hearing about your farm too.  Take it easy with ribs.  From wot I know there is not a lot to help, maybe strapping of some kind.  Hope it gets better soon.

@Sophia1 Hugs. I go into rescue mode too, but learning its limits now. 

@wordman Good to hear from you too. I try to be respectful of the opening poster as a kind of internet manners.  Sometimes it does not matter and the person has ceased using this site.  The threads are all over the place, but sometimes it does matter, we can never really be sure of feelings in real life, the lovely Sophia probably noticed your role and drew you in to convo again.  

Gently Bently Apple