14-10-2021 11:10 PM
Unpleasant to pleasant
I am fairly new here and just wanted to say I can relate to so many of the experiences I read on these forums, the pain and suffering of living with complex mental health issues. I just wanted to aknowledge the hard slog we all go through in our own ways and to share.
Just over a month ago I went into my latest psychosis. My anxieties around feeling isolated and dealing with relationship troubles got the better of me. Fortunately I recognised, or more importantly took myself to my GP who helped me recognise I was becoming unwell again.
I've always struggled to get my story across to a GP, a psychiatrist and a psychologist. I tell one something but neglect to tell the others. Fortunately my GP, pschiatrist and psychologist have banded together via email to keep on top of it so I don't have to stress.
I've been putting in effort for over 20 years seeing many psychologists until I found a good fit. I have a great 'toolbox' thanks to them and this time I was finally able to pause and use the tools. I've also realised that while they help with many things, my psychotic tendencies do require medication. This has literally been a hard pill to swallow but from where I've just been, a pure state of fear, it's a no brainer for me.
It is daunting and scary to put my trust in these three people considering the years of missteps, misdiagnosis and mismedications! I hope everyone out there keeps trying to find the right supports because when they come along life seems a bit brighter.
3 weeks ago it was hour by hour.
2 weeks ago it was day by day.
1 week ago my brain came back online : )
This week I have found a support worker and can see a future.
I am so grateful for having found this site, seeking support and getting my story out. Hang in there everybody on this rollercoaster thingy called life. I have found beauty again, I hope you do too x
15-10-2021 09:41 AM
Re: Unpleasant to pleasant
Thanks for sharing your experiences. You sound like you are doing well which is great to read. Life certainly is a rollercoaster and for me even though its definitely had its ups and downs I am happy with it so far there is so much beauty in it. Today I woke up thinking wow its sunny and total blue sky after last night thunderstorms, rain and I think hail.. such a contrast!
Hope you have a great day.