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[CheerBear]

Morning everyone 🙂

Yay @TheVorticon! And extra yay for not breaking the hook haha.

Morning @Maggie. I am up after crashing before 9 😮 in the lounge room on beanbags. I was super tired.

How did the dr go yesterday and how is your world this morning?

Hi there to anyone else who might be up or getting up or coming by 🙂

[Former-Member]

Good morning @Maggie  I would love to sit and have a cuppa with you. Hope Dr apt went ok yday. I notice @CheerBear  is around too. How did yday go? 

[Maggie]

You must have been very tired to crash in a beanbag @CheerBear . Super tired, is very very tired indeed.😴😴😴

Did you have a nice day?🎁🎁

My Drs appointment went well. I get over the top anxiety just checking in with reception. Just to confuse me, the receptionist smiled, called me by name and asked me to take a seat. Last time she almost threw the info at me with a grunt. 😩😩

But my Dr is lovely. Tests done, waiting for results now.

[Maggie]

Good morning @Former-Member. Tea it is. ☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️💜💙💜 How are you?? Only if you want to share. 💜💜

[CheerBear]

Nice to see you @Former-Member 🙂

Yesterday was an up and down day for me @Maggie and @Former-Member . I had tricky family support worker, then surprise singing and rainbow sprinkle cake with everyone here, then intense kids making me question whether I can do this, then unicorn cake and singing with kids and a friend, then carols etc.... it was so up and down. With only a few hours of sleep it made for a tricky one with really lovely bits.

That would be confusing with the receptionist, and the niceness yesterday would add to it. Anxiety is understandable. It's great your doctor is lovely. Hopefully the tests have some easy to manage answers for you (fingers crossed)?

How's today looking for you both?

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  I felt up and down reading your yesterday. It’s good there were lovely bits. I would struggle to find them I think. Sounds like emotions going everywhere, then some.

How is today looking??? Is it looking like some time out @CheerBear . Go gently. 💜💜💜

[CheerBear]

I found it tricky not to find the lovely bits @Maggie. Part of me wanted to sit and cry in a ball but I was pulled into a more colourful world which was good I think.

Today is gig day but only a shorter shift as I wanted to take it easier. Then shop for last Santa stuff while I have no crew. Dreading that bit lots.

How about you? Have you been playing with paint?

[Maggie]

I smiled reading that first part @CheerBear , being pulled into a more colourful world. I still hope the tears get a chance to flow though. Not wanting to be negative, just real.

Of course it’s Tuesday and gig day. A shorter version is a good choice. I hope it’s a good day there today. Will you get a break over Christmas there?

Last minute Santa stuff, I don’t envy you there. Lost for words with that. Crowds, shopping, a nightmare for me, no matter what time of the year.

I’m in the middle of painting 3 rocks @CheerBear . I was hit with a trip..... from Kind of friend yesterday. Trip being the double meaning kick stuff. I’ll never know how she does it, but I seem to be on the end of the hook without even realising it. I seriously question my intelligence.

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Maggie and @CheerBear

You asked how today is looking for me and how I am? Feeling bleak actually ... best described by black with edges of dark red. Recent events has sent anxiety to fever pitch, sleeping only in snatches of half hour lots. The dark red edges to the black is how I would describe the fear and anxiety surrounding the ever growing depressive mood. And also a growing panic as each day passes that I am still unable to contact my psych. Busy day today ... 2 specialist appointments to get hubby to.

I hope your trip today with 'kind of friend' turns out to be a welcome distraction @Maggie, and that you continue to get your 3 rocks done to your satisfaction. I certainly would never question your intelligence btw.

@CheerBear really happy you have been able to be dragged into a more colourful world. Hope your shortened gig goes well today, and that your shopping trip is productive and efficient.

Sherry 💕

[Maggie]

@Former-Member  Bleak I think is a conservative way of putting how things are in your world today, and many days I imagine. Lack of sleep, when you were only managing minimal stretches anyway, is beyond human endurance. Black with red around the edges, growing depression, and no psych communication, @Former-Member  my heart goes out to you in so many ways.

Your response on another thread is not unfamiliar to my own when caught in a trap of relentless suffering. A human response I think, definitely not evil, bad or otherwise. Just someone at the end of their rope with the knot definitely undone.

Hearing with so much more than my eyes and ears @Former-Member . Feeling very much with you, wishing, big time wishing, I could do more. 💛💛💛