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[MDT]

Enjoy yoga @soul
Stretch well 🙂

[MDT]

Zen Master @soul

[frog]

Thanks @MDT Beautiful.

Something happened to me coming up on 5 years ago, and I couldn't listen to music for a long time. Years. It was overwhelming, too painful. But it's ok now  I went to a concert with my kids in August and I feel like I'm slowly reclaiming it.

[MDT]

@frog I hope you can do that soon 🙂

[Sophia1]

Thanks @MDT

Music has such a strong effect on me..

I was only reminding myself of this last night...

when I hear emotion and passion in a person's voice it release pent up emotion within me..brings about tears...

I used to think of it as depression...sadness...

now I believe it is about what I am denying myself....expression....hope....thanks...appreciation...

plus so much more...

Music is poetry...poetry is music in motion...

@frog I was moved by the experience and effect that you described....A very special time for you to be able to go to a concert with your son...precious times...

take care all 

[MDT]

Music is probably the best thing for mental health I think @Sophia1
Classics, modern, film scores.. You name it.
There's something almost supernatural about music I think.

[Sophia1]

music reaches within my very being...

the hilarious thing is ...I struggle to know me

yet music reaches in there and evokes such incredible emotion..

I love just about every forum of music @MDT

I used to go to symphony orchestra concerts...

love all of the wind and string instruments...

love lighter opera

have to say not all jazz...

soul...reggae...some rap some hip hop..

love dancing also

Sophia

[MDT]

At night all I hear are the crickets and cicadas chirping. Perhaps the most natural sound I hear throughout the waking hours.
It is pleasant because it reminds me of how the natural world is older than our human one. My MH can be managed and so can all of ours just by listening to the natural world. It is quaint and it is surprisingly active at the same time...

[JoeTheLion]

Courage is the price

that life extracts

for granting peace

-Amelia Earhart

[Liztolast]

Struggling to explain to my boyfriend why I'm such a crazy you know what. Can't ever find words, just want to scream IM STRUGGLING AND I DONT KNOW WHY. I put together this poem for anyone who can relate and some things that run through my head when I'm in a very low spot. 

Today, I don't want to be alive
I wish you understood
I can't control my mind or thoughts
I know you wish I would.

I've been crying in this room for hours
Praying youd come check up
By the sound of your laughs as the TV blares
I've got a long night to cheer myself up.

I know I don't deserve you
Your time, your love, your smile
I wish I did, it hurts so bad
That I'll lose you in short while.

My temper rages day by day
My highs, they go so high
But when I'm down, and very down
I long to simply die.

To never feel the burn of anger,
Or shed another shuddering tear,
To be in control of my own soul,
And not give into fear.

I only want some happiness
A touch of love, full life, some kids
The life you say is in my reach,
It's easy for you, it's hell for me

I don't think you could understand
How someone's mind can stray so far,
You tell me get up, smile, move on
Stop being crazy, it's not that hard.

So I run away and hide from you
I can't hear that you doubt me too,
I can't hear that you're almost done
I cant hear that I'm all alone

I'm not crazy, I'm a product of madness
The life I grew up in full of confusion and sadness
I dont mean for excuses but when it gets bad just,
Remember I'm trying and tell me I have this.

Don't listen to the girl inside of me
Who's angry and spiteful and punishes with glee,
She's hurt and she's wounded and she never grew up,
She's caged in my heart and I won't let her out

Listen to the girl you know and you love
The one who bends over backwards just for a hug
Who listens and laughs and loaded with care,
She still sees a light, it's faint, but it's there.

I'm trying to bury the girl with the wounds,
The one that you hate, the psycho, the loon,
Be patient with me, I know that it's rough
I cant believe Im so lucky to find someone so tough.

Don't insult me with words or leave me to myself,
I've had years to do that, now I just need your help,
Love me more gently like you always have done,
I need to get better because you are my one.