Lived Experience Forum

[greenpea]

@Angels333 @Mazarita @eth @outlander @Meowmy @BryanaCamp @Adge @CheerBear @Appleblossom @Exoplanet  .... I have the awful feeling that I have missed someone ..... god if I have I apologise ....good morning and happy Monday everyone! As I lay in bed last night the Scorpio moon shone through the window lighting up my whole room it was lovely :D. I hope it will shine my path this morning when I head off for my walk with neighbour. It is my last walk this week with neighbour for 6 weeks as she is going in for an operation!!! I am not impressed .... and will miss her terribly .... will have to get son up for walks instead :). Hope everyone has a great day loads of love greenpeaxxx

[greenpea]

@Zoe7  I knew it! I had missed my friend Zoe7 :). How are you my friend? will think of you especially this morning on my walk. Give your babies a cuddle for the pea. Loads of love your lil peaxxx

[greenpea]

@Mazarita @Angels333 @eth @outlander @Meowmy @CheerBear @Appleblossom @Zoe7 @Adge  and everybody meet @Alacarte . Alacarte here are some of my friends. They are very kind and don't bite. This is a great thread to write about anything and everything. So welcome :Dxxx

[Alacarte]

Hi @Mazarita @Angels333 @eth @outlander @Meowmy @CheerBear @Appleblossom @Zoe7 @Adge   Thank you @greenpea for the mention. A few names that are familiar on that list and a few new potential friends too. I hope to be respectful of your group here and if I’m not a gentle nudge like ‘Alacarte STOP DOING THAT!!’ will be handy lol. 

Pleased to meet you all! 

[eth]

Hi @greenpea  and welcome @Alacarte  

Good morning to all passing by today @Zoe7 @Angels333 @outlander @Exoplanet @CheerBear @Adge @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Meowmy @Teej @Faith-and-Hope  and anyone else who drops in.

@Alacarte  there are really no rules here.  Anything from light hearted chat to raving about what's going on for you happens here.   @Mazarita  started this thread ages ago and if you go to page 1 you will see more about her intentions for it.  It evolved over time.

Still missing you @Mazarita  and sending lots of love.

I'm off out to bridge in a little while but wanted to say Hi here first.  After that I have to have a go at doing the plan review report my coordinator of NDIS supports has given me.  Big job that's causing quite a bit of anxiety.  So much hangs on what goes into it.  Just my next year's funding.

Have a happy and productive day all.  

[greenpea]

@eth  Hi and good morning eth have a nice time a bridge and good luck with planning metting today I hope it all goes well for you.Love greenpeaxxx

[BryanaCamp]

hi @greenpea I had fun socialising yesterday thanks for asking, I'm gald I went. I hope you enjoyed your 'last' walk with your neighbour for a while. Surgery sounds serious, do you think you'll visit her in hospital if she's there for a while?

[greenpea]

@BryanaCamp  neighbour is having her arm operated on so she wont be able to use it propertly for 6 weeks!! she will be in overnight and out the next day! afterwards she will be living with her son so yeah no walking during that time for her. Plus her daughter is dying of cancer (she is panting breathing atm ....) it is terrible so everything is happening at once for her. I just feel for her so much. Neighbour is 81 that is a hell of alot of things to deal with. 

She has alot of family for support but I have offered to help out where needed. She has my neighbour if she gets stuck all she has to do is call amd I will be there with bells and whistles on 🙂

[greenpea]

@BryanaCamp  correction: *has my number*

[Alacarte]

So, a long rave.. 

i was late in my diagnosis’s of paranoid schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder at the ripe age of 32. By then I’d done a good job of partying my life away and losing friend after friend along the way. Finally the last to go was my ex girlfriend who left me with ‘beautiful disaster’ by Kelly Clarkson as her farewell message to me. By then I’d lost everyone and life was looking pretty grim. So I did what any reasonable person with my diagnosis does and isolated myself for the next 8 years trying to drink away the paranoia and lets be honest, slowly fade away through drink. At 40 I got more help and quit drinking. I took up Coke Zero instead lol and after stopping that recently I realise now I have ocd and drink water instead. Has to be sparkling though. I asked mum about this and she said as a child to teen, before partying came in, I had to be perfect in the things I did and that was I think the onset of my Ocd. I won’t bore yas with the sexual obsession I got into but a few mates commented at the time ‘not everything revolves around sex’. That I didn’t understand lol. And drinking. Wow it took me to great highs but the lows sucked but it kept the voices at bay so for me it was a win. 

So now I’m going to try to give up or at least regulate my water compulsion but given I need it to live I know this won’t be easy as I can’t just go cold turkey this time. 

So this is where I’m at. Lost and confused and wondering if there is help out there for my issue. Maybe I’ll find a new compulsion till my therapist gets back but psychologists haven’t always worked out in the past and my current one is young. But she bulk bills so I can’t complain. As far as I see it though I don’t think I get to choose my compulsion. I think it chooses me and by the time I realise it’s too late. 

Thanks for reading 😊. All good here.