You have so much going on atm that just a tag is enough for me to read how things are going for you - and your reports are so detailed and thorough I am amazed how you are keeping up with everything - so are a champion
It's good to read that you are in the last week of this part of your therapy - the radiation is so hard on you - I admit I never thought a whole lot about it though I know someone who worked in radio-oncology and he was young and had to get out of the industry - so it must be hard - you have opened my eyes to it in a big way - and to think so many women and some men are going though this therapy - it is really something
They do seem to be caring for you in a very sensistive way and I am glad to read about that - it must be so scary going through all of this and I am a person who likes to know all the details too - I understand what you are saying about the upcoming assessment and I wish you all the best there - I will try to imagine myself with you in the room - look about for an old owl with messy feathers - that will be me - watching like a pixar owl on the pelmet board or the mantlepiece - I have to look for one
Yes - I might be hard to find but I will do my level best to be there
And so it's February again - not a leap year this year so you don't have one day to stack it all on - and I do understand that hard events take a long time to even out and anniversaries can be a rough patch - bad rough patch - but in time it does even out. I get it and I understand that there is not really any closure regarding traumatic events. And you have so many - and February is the hard time for you and you are already having nightmares this year - perhaps this has something to do with your radiation therapy because that is surely enough on it's own
I am thinking of you a lot - and wish I could be there for you in person - and hold your hand and do nice things for you like make you a cup of tea and fix an atomiser with essential oils to make the air relaxing
Sending my best wishes as always and hoping this week passes without too much angst - knowing there will be some
My love
Dec
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SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.