I haven't been through a checkout for years @NatureLover as I've always packed my own shopping jeep at self checkouts. I see a neighbour sometimes.

I sometimes try to ring my sister but she almost never picks up.

I'll have to restart with my therapist sometime but can't face it yet. We never really got started   I've only seen her twice. 

I thought I would have had help from support workers the last few weeks but I've had the one visit from the gardener . She rearranged the carport instead of weeding. I've had no help with housework in spite of my efforts with council and the agency. 

I do feel hemmed in by clutter and lack of transport, but at the same time fear going out. 

It sounds as though your change of heart over religion was difficult and disruptive for you, and I'm sorry you lost friends. 

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