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[LostAngel]

not feeling the best over last two days,going to talk to my cousin about how I feel,hes so kind but I feel like Im always misunderstanding ect in terms of our relationship,and my communicucations skills with family its like I cant make the effort with people in my family to socialise ect today and yesterday why is it no matter how hard you try to stay positive for a while you end up slipping back to negative over the smallest things really felt like I couldnt or didnt want to funtion today,feeel a bit exhausted

[Meowmy]

@LostAngel hope you feel better soon. Family relations can be hard. Good that you can talk to your cousin

[Aniela]

Hi @LostAngel 

Sorry to hear you are feeling down and anxious these last two days. It's good that you have a cousin to talk to. It is frustrating though, when we try to communicate the best we can, and people just don't understand. It can make me feel alone. We are here to support you though as best we can. 

Trying to stay positive and slipping back into the negative isn't something we can control. Some days we are more emotionally vulnerable than other days. You said you are exhausted. It's ok to be exhausted. It's ok to rest. It's ok to think "negatively" for a little while. You're allowed to not want to function for a day or two. I allow myself days where I allow myself to just go with it, because I know the emotion will eventually change. We can't be too hard on ourselves when our minds and bodies are overwhelming us. All we can do it be kind to ourselves and do some self-care. I am new on here but I believe there might be a self-care forum or post to look at. 

Hope this has been helpful and you feel better soon 🙂

[LostAngel]

Hi Aniela thank you so much for understanding 🙂 found your response to be helpful, I was able to talk things out which helped too Ive found I need to slow down a bit for now and rest 🙂 ill take a look at self care forum thanks

[LostAngel]

Hi Meowmy thank you for your Kind response 🙂 Ive been able to talk things out with cousin which has helped ,Ive found that I need to slow down and rest for a bit 🙂 thanks Meowmy and Aniela for listening

[Aniela]

Hi @LostAngel 

I am really glad my response was helpful for you. 🙂

[Shaz51]

hello and hugs @LostAngel 

hello @Aniela , @Meowmy 

[Aniela]

Hello @Shaz51 

[LostAngel]

hello yes need hugs something else has come up today, but its just consiquinces that I need to deal with in terms of car insurance ,I recently had an incident of damaging someone elses car and I stress it was an accident on part part but Ive just received a letter from their cars insurer holding me responsible for all costs of repair I guess despite the fact Im insured,I need to be the one to pay up for costs it feels like a hit to my chest but I am aware the incident is my fault and I was very apologetic about it at the time and still am but I guess as usual responsibilities do kind of get thrown at me which Im used to and as yet I dont know how much I need to pay up so well see what happens and theres a few other things I have to deal with but hey thats life,I havnt told anyone about the car incident its stupid to say but the incident was parciially caused by my anxiety of wanting to get out of the car park at the time and feeling preassured to move out of other drivers way as there was traffic congestion at the time,also my excuse for leaving the scene was that I was distracted yes definitely distracted by anxiety even though I know I should have stayed but as typical of me when I get anxcious I tend to run from whater situation it is at the time well today felt hit the chest by the letter but I know its me thats to blame so I more or less accept it:(

[LostAngel]

apologies it turns out the letter is dated a few weeks back as Ive just realised emails I got sent from their insurer where dated after this letter,I must be just finding any reason to beat my self up emotionally at the momment and at first I thought the letter was the newest information being sent,I need to keep resting resting as much as possible despite other things that I am trying to deal with at the momment,just need the confidence to make some phone calls and talk to people about support to resolve those issues,doing the best I can to get off the couch at the momment in a few minutes I might try to acheive something today as well as resting