27-03-2017 09:36 PM
27-03-2017 09:36 PM
I'm with you in this storm. I'm glad you know that it will pass. The strength of this storm is matched only by the strength you have in riding it out, outlasting it and defying it. I think you've found the key to it, in that you're not fighting it, you're riding it. I'm adrift at the moment too, not sure which way is up. Its nice to not be alone,
lj
27-03-2017 09:47 PM
27-03-2017 10:05 PM
28-03-2017 10:28 AM
28-03-2017 10:28 AM
{Sticks head out of shell}. It's morning and even though the sea is still a bit rough, the waves aren't nearly as huge as they were last night. Hmmm...I now appear to be floating in the middle of nowhere with @Former-Member, an elephant on a surfboard named @Former-Member, a @Former-Member, and @Former-Member the sea turtle. Er...does anybody know the way back to Forum Land? @utopia, @TheVorticon, @Faith-and-Hope, @Former-Member@NikNik...anyone else around...could someone please set off some flares or something from Forum Land so we can find our way back??? Until then, I guess I'll just float. Phew, that really was a super gigantic storm. On the bright side, hopefully spending the night getting tossed around by those giant waves got all that sand out of your shell @Former-Member. Sand in your shell is super uncomfortable!! I'm kind-of excited to discover that you are a sea turtle @Former-Member. I've never actually hung out with another sea turtle before. Thank you for riding with me everybody. Wow, that must now be about the ten millionth four hundred and fifty-two thousandth time that I've proven the theory that this too shall pass - and my 100% success rate of surviving every day living with BPD remains intact. I'm awesome.
28-03-2017 12:09 PM
28-03-2017 12:09 PM
Oh hi there @Phoenix_Rising, so glad the water has calmed and you are able to pop up and look around, floating sounds like a good idea, deep breaths and going with the flow for today
I have found some jellyfish for brunch, you caught me mid mouthful so excuse the eating face hehe, nom nom nom, want to try some? It's quite salty....
28-03-2017 12:12 PM
28-03-2017 12:12 PM
p.s. you are awesome! Look at you surviving each day as it comes riding with those huge swells! That's pretty amazing!
28-03-2017 01:58 PM
28-03-2017 01:58 PM
@Former-Member Mmmmmm jellyfish. I'm glad it's red. I only like red jelly...fish. You are right in saying that today is a day to go with the flow. These waves are still kind-of rough although much calmer than yesterday. I am about to go and snuggle under my weighted blanket to try and settle the big feelings some more. Super big thank you for staying so close....but not too close...ok, that's too close, {accepts a super brief tinsy tiny turtle hug from @Former-Member and then swims away}.
28-03-2017 05:28 PM
28-03-2017 05:28 PM
@Former-Member @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @utopia I think my shell has sprung a leak or something. I felt very clever because I got myself dressed and out of the house for a walk and about five minutes later I started to totally lose it. All I could think was that I had to get home because if I went into meltdown in public it would cause a whole other level of muddle. So I'm now at home crying and rocking and really really really in a pickle. Something is very wrong. Please can you come and find me out here in the ocean and ride with me?
28-03-2017 05:30 PM
28-03-2017 05:30 PM
28-03-2017 05:32 PM
28-03-2017 05:32 PM
I'm just going to sit here and talk to myself until someone comes. I know someone will come. I know I need to slow my breathing down. I know it is ok that I'm crying and rocking. I know I'm at home now and it's ok. I know that it is a trauma thing. I know it is ok. I know it is my brain dealing with stuff. I know that I'm safe right here, right now, and all I have to do is float in the ocean. I feel scared, but that's ok, it's just a feeling. I know I need to just breathe. All I have to do now is just breathe. It's ok that I'm rocking, it's ok that I'm crying, it's ok that I'm drenched in sweat. It's all ok, all I have to do is breathe and just sit right here and wait. I can do that. I have done this lots of times before and I can do it right now. Nothing feels real and that's ok too. That's just my brain's way of dealing with an overload of big feelings. I can do this. All I have to do is breathe. That's all I have to do.
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