Riding a wave

[OhanaSystem]

@Faith-and-HopeI see the picture now. I can definitely see the rabbit, easy as!

Can you see the bear cub talking to the little birdy? (Same cloud, but facing the other direction.)

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yes @OhanaSystem .... I thought it looked like a koala at first, but it has a big fluffy tail like a squirrel ....

[Phoenix_Rising]

I feel so confused and so yuck. I feel like I'm being gaslighted. Nothing makes sense. I'm supposed to talk there and not here, but no one responds to me there. I've been waiting since last Friday for a response from one person. 

Can anyone explain this muddle to me? I'm the only person out of the 24 million people in the country who isn't allowed to call the HC, right. One rule for me and another for everyone else. Last week I made a request for something that would help make the situation a tinsy tiny bit easier for me to cope with and I was told that no, my request couldn't happen because they can't have one rule for one and another rule for everyone else. Er...but you've already made one rule for one and another rule for everyone else?????????

Is it just me that this makes no sense to? Is it really my wonky communication that means this makes no sense to me whatsoever? 

I've been encouraged to seek support from my peers, so peers, can you maybe help me with this part of the puzzle???

[Former-Member]

That doesn’t make sense to me either, @Phoenix_Rising. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member so what does this MEAN? Does it mean you are just as wonky as me and this really does make sense to most people? I feel so so SO scared. What does it mean? Am I being gaslighted? Am I being bullied? Am I being discriminated against? What does it MEAN?????? 

@Faith-and-Hope you are good at translating things into turtle. What does this mean????

[OhanaSystem]

@Phoenix_Rising I did some thinking on this, while snuggling our dog. I'm wondering if maybe they view it differently for one of the following reasons:
1. Maybe you're not the only one person not allowed to call?
2. Maybe any person in a similar situation would be not allowed to call?

Either/both of those things might be maybe alternative ways of thinking about the situation that for them, makes it not "one rule for one". I'm just throwing ideas out there, please don't think I'm trying to say one way or another what is the case for anyone. They're just guesses and maybes.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@OhanaSystem No, I have been told that I am the first person this has ever happened to. As to whether someone in a similar situation would also be banned? Well the situation is entirely unique too. At least...I've been told it is. The truth is I would have no idea how many other people the thing that happened to me, has happened to, but I do believe them when they say the situation is something that has never happened before. 

[Former-Member]

As we dont know the situation it is so very hard to say one thing or another in response to your questions Phoenix_Rising ... i guess people working with other people in the mental health field or any interpesonal field really... have to treat each person and situation individually as we're all so different... and we cant really know or understand all that has gone on...
But there are so many people here who are sitting with you and understanding as best they can that you are hurting a lot through this situation and care for you. I'm sitting here and wishing that you weren't hurting so much because many of us here do understand deep psychological pain and fear that we can't do much about...
Keep taking care of you and doing what you need, always here listening and caring too...

[OhanaSystem]

@Phoenix_Rising In that case, I think I'm baffled as to how it's different. Sorry I can't help, but I hope this at least helps you to know that it's not a problem with your communication in not understanding the difference.

[Former-Member]

I don’t know what it means, @Phoenix_Rising, but it doesn’t feel right to me. I really struggle with the idea of different rules for different people in the first place. And I really struggle with helping people seeing someone in such distress and not helping them when ‘help’ is something as simple as a conversation.