I am trying so hard to enjoy my big adventure. This has been planned for months and it should be such a super fun time. I am trying so hard to enjoy the right now. But still, the weight of the wrongness of the wrong hangs so very very heavy in my soul. I am super dissociated and it makes navigating the adventure so much harder than it would otherwise be. I can't get the super scared feelings out of my body. I can feel how much I'm sitting right on the edge of my window of tolerance and I'm just waiting for the next email bus to come along and further mush my brain. The I-don't-matter feelings, the anybody-can-do-anything-to-me feelings, the no-one-hears-me-no-one-believes-me feelings and the super icky shhhhh-don't-tell feelings have filled up my brain and my soul. Good job brain for knowing how to shut down to protect itself! It is so so SO hard to enjoy the present with a super mushed brain.
Goodnight @SleepyPanda. I just saw that you are now on ocean-watching duty for the night. I super like how you are appearing so frequently in Forum Land. It feels nice to have regular non-regular moderators watching over the ocean. 
Super big thank you for dropping by the ocean last night @TheVorticon and @Maggie. I super like the idea of you locking all the buses in the bus yard @TheVorticon.That would be superly duperly helpful. 
I am about to wander down to breakfast in the fancy hotel. I have high hopes for this breakfast so I super hope I won't be disappointed. I don't have to change the world until 10am so if there is a super cool buffet breakfast, I fully intend to spend about two hours enjoying it - yay for all you can eat buffets!
I am definitely going to be super practicing my mindfulness skills to stay in the present and enjoy eating crazy amounts of food, while my soul and my body super struggle with the wrongness of the wrong. I woke up drenched in sweat, despite the airconditioning in the fancy hotel room being set to a perfect temperature. 
I am going to try super hard to focus on the power I do have in this changing the world adventure, rather than the utter powerlessness and voicelessness of the oh-so-deeply-wrong other thing that is crushing me at the moment.
I super hope today has some good in it for everyone.
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SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.