RE: Darkness surrounds me

[Former-Member]

Hi @Sans911 how are you going today hun?

[Bunniekins]

@Former-Member I remember when my marriage was breaking up before we seperated and I was crazy, just bat shit crazy ... anyway ... I should say what I do remember was my poor now ex hubby had no idea what was going on ... he just thought I was being strange and difficult. Nobody really knew how sick I was because I was manic so still getting up and doing stuff but all over the place like at a million miles an hour ...  not lying in bed not able to move that happened a year later.

We are great friends now. I like being single and my chldren are happier than they were before ... but God did it take a long long time to reach this point.

Hang in there NellBell you will reach your happy place with your beautiful loving family xxx

[Sans911]

@Former-Member flat and slow. But I did just make a nice banana and chocolate cake. I have like about a dozen black bananas in the freezer so it was time to use them up. I'm waiting for it to cool before I put icing on.

My mother is coming tonight and staying overnight. It's always hard to keep a facade up; she has no idea how bad things have been. But she's in a good space, so I'll let her enjoy that.

It's quite warm here right now, slight breeze coming through windows. I'm trying to sort out last of boxes that have been in storage, but I'm struggling energy wise. Just can't be bothered

[Former-Member]

@Bunniekinsi love your optimism, I might need to borrow some!!

[Sans911]

@Bunniekins good afternoon. I've been following your conversation with Nell.

[Bunniekins]

@Former-Member as much as you want!I just want you to feel a bit better, even if it is for a fraction of a second, if it gets your mind away from the troubles then I am a happy pea.

[Former-Member]

@Sans911sorry to hear you feel flat and slow but well done for making a cake. That sounds yum. It is hard to keep that facade up with friends/family, but I understand. Sometimes it is just easier to pretend like everything is ok which just make us even more exhausted. Sounds like you are trying to protect her too.

Today here has been cold and light drizzle, not that I have gone outside. I did make it to the couch, yea for me! The boxes will be there tomorrow or the next day Sans, leave them and have a nice cup of tea!!

[Bunniekins]

Hi @Sans911  

[Former-Member]

thanks @Bunniekins, i"ll get there just have had a few road blocks lately!!

[Bunniekins]

@Sans911 I have your motto writtin on my arm I liked it so much ... the one that says : New Chapter: getting unstuck, staying safe & being honest. 

I really really liked it. I will show it to my psychiatrist tomorrow.