On the edge

[Molly22]

@Former-Member  @Zoe7 Thank you so much.  I just got back from seeing my psych.  It helped.  Not that she really gave me much in the way of strategies to cope but just having a sympathetic ear helped I suppose.  She said she was only a phone call away if I needed it when hubby is gone.

He is on the computer now rescheduling everything to leave sooner.  In a way it might be better if leaves sooner as it is less time waiting around catastrophising the worse case scenario's.

[Zoe7]

I am glad you psych helped a little @Molly22 Sometimes we just need that person there to listen 👍

I agree - having less time to think about things is often a good thing but so sorry your hubby's Mum is not good. Your psych has given you the option to call so do so if you need whilst hubby is away. I had a great psych who was the same and it helped a lot just knowing I had that option even if I didn't use it often.

[Former-Member]

Some psychs are excellent hey @Molly22 and @Zoe7! I hope my new psychologist will be more supportive, I need a big safety support network at the moment because when I struggle to cope, my mental state deteriorates and I lose my temper really badly and when I'm unwell enough, it takes me almost three days to feel better, then after that several days to recover from exhaustion resulting from the mental breakdown.

[Former-Member]

Hey @Molly22! Just wondering how you are? I'm still awake, chitchatting away across the forum threads. I tend to be more social and chatty around people as I settle into the community be it on here or in real life, and as I get to know them more. I'm a bit of a mixed bag of social and shy: shy when I'm untrusting and don't know anybody. More social when I meet and interact with the same people on a daily or weekly basis. I slowly get more trusting and more friendly.Anyway, I hope you're all right!

[Molly22]

@Former-Member @Zoe7  Thanks guys for the lovely messages yesterday.  Always nice to wake up to notifications that someone cares.

Due to my chronic pain and physical limitations I'm in bed frighteningly early.  WAY before dark.  But also up earlier than most.  I have this cut-off window of opportunity to speak to people, usually no later than 5pm.  Now I understand my autism it's probably more to do with that.  I shut down mentally after around 4-5pm.  But I'm sure this will not be the case when hubby is gone as I will be all alone.

I totally understand @Former-Member about being shy at first.  I'm pretty not shy online but in person it can take me awhile to trust.  Actually if I'm honest, I never totally trust.  Been broken too many times by too many people.  And I'm very much an introvert so in person I can really only hold a conversation with one person at a time.  That's also very much an autism thing.  I'm pretty good one on one but as soon as you add a third person I get all confused and never know when it's my turn to talk.

So hubby leaves next week.  I'm feeling a mix of kinda OK and accepting, and still sorta hoping his flight gets cancelled cause of covid.  I know that's selfish but I can't help it.  I know I have some supports in place now, which helps.  Just this gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach that most likely won't ever go away until hubby is back home safe again.  

[Shaz51]

Morning @Molly22 , @Former-Member , @Zoe7 , @AussieRecharger , @Dimity 

What a crazy few days here for me 

@Molly22 , usually do time lapses of clouds over the hills , winter clouds with their awesome shapes

[Molly22]

@Shaz51 That sounds super cool.  Do you upload them online anywhere.  Would love to see.  Here's a pic of my neighbours horses at her dam which I have a lovely view of from my place. 

[Shaz51]

Ohhh what beautiful horses @Molly22 , and a beautiful photo 🥰

[Zoe7]

@Molly22 That is the most gorgeous photo of horses I have ever seen Hon - you are exceptionally talented  @Shaz51 reminds me of your photos and capturing the true essence of the subject ...two very talented photographers we have here with both of you 

@Molly22 Of course you are going to be worried and stressed when hubby is away but we got you - tag me anytime Hon and as soon as I am able I will reply  I do tend to be here more at night but look in when I have breaks during the day at the moment. I still have 4 weeks of holidays so it will co-incide with your hubby being away 👍

[Former-Member]

What a stunning shot @Molly22, a wonderful composition. Did you have to get in the water to take it?