Not Coping

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, I haven’t found a GP I feel comfortable with. I have private health insurance, but the level I have doesn’t cover psych sessions. I would need to increase the cover

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah okay @creative_writer 

I have gold so that's probably why. It sucks you need gold to go into a private psych hospital. 

It shouldn't be like that. 

I'm on my parents. 

Have you been to a psych ward? 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, I’ve been in short stay, but was not admitted into a psych ward. But every time I went to hospital for my MH, my parents freaked out. So I’ve had to try to stay away, I used to be insanely suicidal all the time, like I would start planning my end. I did get outpatient support which did help and I was able to text supports if things got bad, and there was a choice of linking into community supports over the weekend

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh okay I wonder why th, I wonder why they freaked out. 

Mine were happy I was getting support even though we haven't talked about it since. 

How did your supports let you text them? I highly doubt my psychologist would ever do that. 

At least you got support so you didn't have to go into hospital which is a good thing @creative_writer 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, mine don’t trust the MH system here. My mum has intense separation anxiety and will totally freak if with hospital stays.

That was when I was with the HOPE team. I would be able to reach out over text to my allocated supports. Psychs don’t typically do that

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah okay @creative_writer 

That makes sense since you living at home. I'm in Melbourne so my parents can't control whether I go in or not. 

Did you find the Hope team help? 

Can I ask did you got into the Hope team because of an attempt or just planning one? 

I somehow didn't get in for either. St V’s don't seem to care at all. 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, I didn’t get the chance to attempt. I was googling how to make a lethal attempt and wrote a concerning poem. I hadn’t gotten as far as actually going through it. I wasn’t at immediate risk of suicide, but was at risk of things escalating. It did once during my period with HOPE, but I was interrupted with my sister and mum coming into the room, so I had to pretend nothing happened, I had to stop what I was going to do. I guess it was not in my destiny to make an attempt then and there. HOPE did help

[Birdofparadise8]

That's good hope helped @creative_writer 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @Blackbird11 

How are you? 

[Blackbird11]

Hi @Birdofparadise8 hugs tou you 🤗 

I'm almost ready for my roadtrip up north. I'm think I'm feeling hopeful it will be a good day 😌  How are you?