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[Owlunar]

Hi @BlueBay

I know Huffnpuff doesn't understand and I hear you 

If you need to talk to someone then ring Life Line 

Otherwise practice your breathing and stop this self-sabotage  - you are digging yourself a hole - so please settle down for your own sake 

My WiFi is playing up so I can't send the long message I planned - chat with me though if you can

Dec

[saltandpepper]

Oops @Peregrinefalcon my bad. Sorry, I won't punch anyone.

[Shaz51]

hugs @BlueBay  my sister 

[BlueBay]

Hey @Owlunar 

this panic and anxiety is bringing me back to 10 yrs ago when i was thinking of telling my parents of my childhood abuse. This is exactly how i am feeling.  I have done some slow breathing exercises.  

I am doing these sabotage stuff to try and get out of going to work.  Why? i don't know.  

I think i should go for a walk.

it's our anniversary tomorrow, why is it me that has to organise the restaurant for lunch.  he can think of a place too. 

it would be so nice if he could surprise me with someone to go.

we are so grateful - our boys gave us money to go out for lunch.  such good boys i have.

@saltandpepper  LOL you don't want to get into trouble!!!

[BlueBay]

Just looked outswide - its raining.  OK, I'll quickly get dinner on and i will go and do some minduflness breathing in my bedroom while boys are watching footy

[saltandpepper]

Maybe tell him to organise something @BlueBay Sometimes, not me, but others, need to be told to do things... Always happy to do those things, but sometimes a nudge is needed. "Nudge" is too polite really.

I'm ok with getting into trouble for ya @BlueBay 

[Owlunar]

They are good boys @BlueBay  and have a Happy Anniversary for tomorrow 

I think I know why you are stressing  - this new job is FANTASTIC  - a great chance for you and the negative side of your brain is really having a field day  - you don't need all this

After all what can go wrong between then and now? Whatever it is it's most unlikely or it might rain which is more likely  - after all it's raining today 

However the end is not yet - prove us all right - you will be okay

Dec

[BlueBay]

OK, i didn't go for a walk because it's raining.  I have put dinner in the oven and I am on here.  i will go now and do some mindfulness.  

@Owlunar  yes you're most likely right.  I'll be back later on if i get a chance.  

@Shaz51 @saltandpepper 

[Shaz51]

Happy Anniversary for tomorrow my sister @BlueBay 

i agree with @Owlunar 

[BlueBay]

Thank you @Shaz51 

I feel sick in my stomach 

nerves anxiety high 

I'm sitting here trying to do slow breathing 

it's hard when my body wants to do the opposite 

@Owlunar @saltandpepper @Eve7 @Emelia8 @MDT @BPDSurvivor