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21-05-2022 07:16 PM
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21-05-2022 09:59 PM
21-05-2022 09:59 PM
Re: My Mosaic
I need it to just stop
the constant noise in my head
telling me what to do
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22-05-2022 08:07 AM
22-05-2022 08:07 AM
Re: My Mosaic
Sending hugs @Bow ...EDs seem so incredibly hard to deal with 😞
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22-05-2022 02:27 PM
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Re: My Mosaic
Tortuous at the moment @NatureLover
The constant noise inside my head. Arguing between what I know I need and what my ED wants…. my ED is winning today. Torturing and depriving my body.
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22-05-2022 02:57 PM
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Re: My Mosaic
Sorry to hear it has been hard for you @Bow
Sitting with you hon 💗💗
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22-05-2022 08:14 PM
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Re: My Mosaic
Anyone around?
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23-05-2022 08:07 AM
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Re: My Mosaic
I'm sorry no-one was around for you yesterday here, @Bow ...I normally don't go on the forums in the evenings as I get depressed in the evenings.
@Bow wrote:Tortuous at the moment @NatureLover
The constant noise inside my head. Arguing between what I know I need and what my ED wants…. my ED is winning today. Torturing and depriving my body.
I'm sorry to hear...it sounds like yesterday was pretty bad for you 😞
I really hope today is a bit better 💜
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23-05-2022 11:41 AM
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Re: My Mosaic
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23-05-2022 02:24 PM
23-05-2022 02:24 PM
Re: My Mosaic
Today is a special anniversary for me. Its the anniversary of graduating the rehab program that I spent nearly a year at. It feels really different today. I feel disappointed within myself. Disappointed that I’m not able to put into practice all the things that I learnt there, all the things that transformed my life back all those years ago. I know that if I could things could be really different for me. I wouldn’t be where I am now, fighting to stay alive all over again.
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23-05-2022 02:33 PM - edited 23-05-2022 02:38 PM
23-05-2022 02:33 PM - edited 23-05-2022 02:38 PM
Re: My Mosaic
TW: Eating disorder
Hi @Bow
I'm so sorry this anniversary of what should be a good memory has brought up such negative feelings for you. I'm sorry this is just continuing for you of late. Are you okay right now?
I can see why you feel disappointed. I get disappointed with myself so easily, though as I've gotten older I do it less often. I used to have an ED and felt in constant battle with it. One day I realised I was in front of it more often than not.
Maybe you don't realised it but there are probably things about rehab that have stuck. I for one am glad you're here and reaching out today. Sending big hugs
hanami 💮