@CheerBear I am super pleased you have two people you trust.
Yeah...probably don't try to defend that mindset regarding suicide, to the catt too much. I can see how that might not go so well...even though I can give you the page number of the DBT treatment manual where Linehan discusses this concept. That is where I got it from. It is such a refreshing approach in a world where most people flip out if someone mentions that they are having thoughts of suicide.
I am feeling quite ok tonight. After this post I will head over to the highlight of the day thread to share my highlight - so I won't spoil it by sharing here. I can tell you though that I saw my psychologist today and I spent a good part of the session talking about how broken the system is. I hope you don't mind, but I vented about how much harm the catt had done in your situation and explained to X that this was why I didn't want a phams worker. We talked about our own puzzle regarding the fact that X is legally bound to do something if I disclose an immenent risk, but for her to do something would be to create a whole fresh layer of trauma. We talked again about the fact that our solution to this puzzle is that if at some point I choose to suicide, I won't be telling X beforehand. Our shared understanding is that if she is concerned, she will ask me if I intend to suicide and I will say "no" regardless of what my intent actually is. As she pointed out, on this matter I truly am fully empowered. So...even though you've had a totally crappy weekend, it did prompt a useful conversation between my psychologist and me. 
It is pretty funny that you asked if I had porridge for dinner. I actually had it for breakfast AND lunch...so I told myself I simply couldn't have it for dinner too. I haven't ended up having anything. I think that has something to do with my highlight of the day...
{Pokes @CheerBear to remind her that Phoenix_Rising is in the nest sitting silently beside her - just in case she forgot since Phoenix_Rising is so good at being still and quiet for super long periods of time}.
I found these and will be making enough of them when I feel crafty again, to share with anyone else who wants to sit in the nest and hold a rainbow when it's stormy (or not stormy and just because rainbows are kind of great). It feels very stormy even in the virtual ocean at the moment so I'm holding on to one and just watching it until this storm passes. It's very pretty.
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