I'm in a nest

[Shaz51]

can I come for a while @CheerBear, @Phoenix_Rising, @Mazarita, @Spookytookims, @Former-Member

soo tired xx

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear your picture hasn't come up yet, but thanks to @Spookytookims, now the mention of a rainbow makes me get an image in my brain of a rainbow going down a toilet. So...right now I have an image of you holding one end of a rainbow while the other end descends into a toilet. Gee...I always knew that pesky @Spookytookims was going to have an adverse effect on my brain.

[Spookytookims]

pesky Spookytookims @Phoenix_Rising

         

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Spookytookims ROFL.

[CheerBear]

Back here thank you for the ride @Phoenix_Rising. But I wonder whether @Spookytookims is also feeling shaky here too at the moment because I see it in the picture above maybe, and I want to send her a hug but I'm kind of stuck shaking myself.

[Phoenix_Rising]

Awwwwww @CheerBear I feel sad that you are feeling all shaky. Sitting here in Sydney, I actually don't feel nearly as shaky as the picture @Spookytookims just posted of me might suggest. I actually feel quite calm and ok...which I think is attributable to the substantially improved relationship with my psychologist. FINALLY I feel like I have someone in my corner...and that makes me feel snuggly and safe. But I digress..

I have a feeling that @Spookytookims' picture is just illustrative of her messing with my brain by filling it with images of rainbows in toilets. I'm sure she will let us know soon enough. In the meantime, do you want to try the thing of sitting still for three minutes with your hands palm-up? We can do it here together in your nest. I've been diligently doing it each morning. I have to say, in the safety of my own backyard, I don't find that any harder than sitting any other way...and I can sit and just listen to the birds for HOURS. Sitting in my garden makes me feel super calm.

[Spookytookims]

@CheerBear   pic above is me... and poor @Phoenix_Rising rocking in her shell at pesky spookytookims 😛

Hence PR rofl-ing at it.  🙂

So I'm ok... also think it's pretty funny PR was offering her aspie brain...   lol'd at that one too.  She may be aspie but she's got good caring bones in there 😄

I still don't know how aspie and BPD work together... they ostensibly seem to be opposite on the emotions scale.  But I think I've kind of figured it out.  It seems like it's potentialy very messy because it just shouldn't work.

[CheerBear]

That sounds really good @Phoenix_Rising. I'm going to set my timer on my phone and peel my legs from my chest and sit with them crossed and just sit. Big breath. Thank you phoenix_rising.

[Phoenix_Rising]

---

---

@Spookytookims what can I say, I'm an enigma. Yes, being me is kind-of messy but it isn't really so perplexing. I was born aspie. Bad stuff happened, and as a consequence of the bad stuff I developed BPD. Thus I became an aspie with BPD. That's all.

[CheerBear]

I think I'm too broken even to sit with my palms up for 3 minutes. I got 1:14 in to it and a big lump happened in my throat and I started crying lots. I dont know if that's ok but I think it is. I think when I relax I fall apart a bit. The same thing happened the other time I tried this. I found muffin mix in the cupboard when i was looking for silly labels. I am going to bake them and then have a bath I think.

It's past 9pm now so i think you'll be off from forum land soon @Phoenix_Rising. Thank you again for being with me in this muddle.