Dark thoughts scaring me.

[outlander]

@Tigga321 💕💕

[Faith-and-Hope]

Have you told your psych this @Tigga321 ? There may be medications you can take that help with the process ..... it is important that your therapist knows how the treatment is affecting you .... they are there to support you, but you have to communicate that this is what is happening for you so they know how to help you.

💐💕

[Tigga321]

@Faith-and-Hope,

my appointments are 4 weeks apart, too long that was my second discosure, the first one I ended up in hospital because I could handle it, I don't want to go there again. Lack of Pysch here only one in 280 kilometres radious, rural nsw.. I'm safe for now but I'm impulsive and I don't know. 

[Former-Member]

Hi @Tigga321 - I just went back and read some of your posts. I have felt like you are now- I also suffered horrific childhood abuse and approx 5 years ago suffered a mental breakdown where I did not leave the house for a couple of years. The problem with the latter is that it feed the bad memories and depressive thoughts making me worse, so eventually with baby steps I ventured back out into the world again as part of my attempt at healing and it helped. My life is not rosy now but better (I am 57 in March). Hold onto hope. So sorry to read of your struggle - I just want you to know that you are not alone in it. Sending a warm hug your way xx

[Faith-and-Hope]

Stay close with us @Tigga321 ..... we are here for you, to listen to you and just sit with you.

Do you have numbers for online counselling ?
Lifeline ?
Butterfly Foundation ?
Suicide Call Back Centre ?

These are resources you can call and talk too when you are feeling impulsive and unsafe. Just take it one day at a time and we will walk with you from appointment to appointment ......

Do you have chamomile tea and other things to help calm you when the going gets rough ? Music to listen to ? Adult colouring books ?

[Tigga321]

Hello @Former-Member,

Im 62 tomorrow, my children don't care because I couldn't protect them properly from their dad, oh I suffered at the hands of my elder brother, parents and husband, so I tried to give them a safe life, but I couldn't, I failed them..They saw how weak I was with their dad, they lost respect for me.. I have no family I have me and I'm always inside my head.

[Tigga321]

@Former-Member,  If my children don't ring me tomorrow, it will break me beyond repair, they never msg or rang at Christmas or new year, tomorrow will shatter me so much..

[Tigga321]

@Shaz51 It's okay I should have stayed away.. I'm sorry I might cause you worry, with my thoughts...I'm fine...Tomorrow will be here to soon for me..

Take care of yourselves. Please..

[Shaz51]

Take care of you my friend @Tigga321