Dark thoughts scaring me.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Tigga321

How are you going ?

I have had a lot of ups and downs since I last posted here ..... including an overnight in hospital for tests. I had some worrying symptoms, but they have abated now, and were put down to a post viral fatigue.

We have moved states for our two youngest to attend uni, and both are in ..,.. it didn’t happen easily, but it’s done now. I have flown across the country to visit my other kids, bringing my special needs D2 with me, just for a long weekend.

Have you had a chance to read around the forum a bit ?

💐💕

[Appleblossom]

Hello @Tigga321 Thinking about you and just posted a picture of being in a protective nest.

Have you managed to get to see your pdoc since Christmas?

Take Care.

[outlander]

hi @Tigga321 hope your going ok, havent heard from you for a bit

[Tigga321]

Hello @Faith-and-Hope, 

I have not been well, I have been hiding in my bedroom now for a few weeks, I stayed away from here because you are all struggling and I don't want to be a burden on anyone...

I have now decided that life can just pass me by, Im not fighting the memories anymore I'm going with them, it's hard either way, so now I don't care anymore..I'm just to exhausted to care,

please just look after yourselves and be kind..

[Shaz51]

@Tigga321 , you are welcome here anytime of the day and night my friend , to share or just to talk ,  we are all here for you and you are not alone

sending you hugs

Hello @Jayyjay 

[Tigga321]

Hello @Shaz51,

I feel so alone, I have this deep sadness that's eating at me, no words can describe the hurt coming from deep inside me it like a never ending torture, every day I have it, I don't want to feel this any more..I don't want to be here anymore like this, since I disclosed to my Pysch a part of my abuse I've suffered I am constantly re living it and it's just to painful..

[Faith-and-Hope]

You can get past this point @Tigga321 ..... please keep going with the psych ..... it’s painful to raise the past with them, but it is like lancing a boil and then cleaning it out ..... the pain begins to recede again and you have the chance for things to slowly heal .....

We all do have our own problems here .... but that is what helps us to empathise with each other, and with you .....

Everybody needs a voice Hon .... even if you choose to just sit quietly here with us .... please stay .....

💜

[Shaz51]

sitting with you @Tigga321 

[Tigga321]

Its hard @Faith-and-Hope I don't know, It hurts, deeply, I can't stop the pain, there's only one way to stop the pain, I don't want to go their but I can't live with this pain either anymore