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Hi Jacques I hope its a sunny day where you are.

Its supposed to be hot today.
More classes for me. I snuck outside yesterday it was nice to be in the sun again. Even for a little while.
Hope you have a good day Jacques ill be thinking of you
karen

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Hi My angel, 

 

OMG i am so proud of you, i bet the sun was nice on your face, their is nothing like it, it helps you feel alive.

 

Oh yes full sun and 40 degrees today, so i think i am going to melt, but i have a good AC so it should not be so bad.  I hope they have Air conditioners in your room.

 

Oh Karen, i too hope your day is not too stressful, you have made my day by posting your message so early, i am so happy seeing you write Karen, i am hoping to do some painting if i have the energy.

 

I am going to water my Karen Garden this morning, keep them hydrated for the heat today, talking about hydrated, how are you going with drinking water? please try to have 2 600ml bottles a day Karen, a healthy body makes a healthy mind, well that is what i keep telling myself.

 

My thoughts will be with you today my angel.  Take care, be kind to yourself.

 

Jacques

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OMG i am so sorry @Former-Member, i missed yoru message on Monday, their was so much going on with the moderators i lost track of the posts.

 

Yes 1 of the people i saw on sunday where from highschool, he was my best friend until he betrayed me.  Yes it does bring back so many memories, memories i want to forget. luckily they did not see me, i went out of my way to make sure i went in area's they where not.  i am so tired of having to live in fear all the time, but my town is so small their is no way of hiding anywhere.

 

Thank you for saying such nice things, but i have never been in a romantic relationship and have no idea how they work, i feel so ashamed to be 33 and never been romantic with a woman, their is so much pressure for men to be sleeping around and you are put down if you are not, like you are weird or abnormal.  i feel so abnormal i see all my family cousins younger than me having been married have children and some of them are buying their second homes.  i just wish i could share my life with a woman, someone who i can have fun with and oh i don't know, it is just a dream.  i don't know what i want.

 

I feel responsible for men abusing women because being of the male species it makes me angry, sad and confused to how men can be so lucky as to have a beautiful woman kind and caring and then treat them like dirt, the town i live in has the highest rate of doestic violence in NSW, so many women who deserve better so many men like me who would be kind and caring for them it just upsets me that is all.

 

Well @Former-Member, i have always told myself if i was lucky enough to meet a woman i would get a vesectomy straight away to make sure their is no mistakes, if their is ever a free clinic come to my town to perform these procedures i will be the first in line. even if i have not met anyone.  just to be sure.

 

Well i don't want children because i would not make a good parent, i struggle with loud noises, i am terrified of being acussed of abuse, i think the world is severly over populated, and i want to be the last family member of my fathers side.  I have no problem with others having children, i just don't want any myself.

 

Oh @Former-Member you are a wonderful woman, very smart and i think you are great, yes sometimes it is hard to come to terms with what we are ment to be, i have found the same, being alone i do all my own cooking, cleaning and sewing, some men would laugh if they know what i do, but it is because i have been to poor to pay someone else to do it, so i had to learn.

 

Oh @seuss i am so sorry you have lost the only person to care about you, the feeling of lonlyness can be so overbearing sometimes, and feleing alone and scared is so horrible, i do hope one day you can find someone to spend your life with who cares for you deeply and gives you a family and a safe environment.

 

That is totally ok I will call him Mr. Cat Smiley LOL  You are so lucky to have a cat, OMG that is so cute, yes i can watch cats for hours playing with things, one of mums friends had a cat, and i thought it was awesome.  it sounds like you have a great friend and companion in Mr. cat, please give him a hug for me.

 

No i don't have any animals, i don't have the money to care for them properly, and i am not in a good enough frame of mind to care for an animal, but i like the wildlife that lives in my yard, they will play and eat around me whil i am out in the yard, some of them allow me to get within a meter of them, they seem to trust me, i feel so honoured that they do.

 

Yes i feel the same, unless i can care for something i would much rather not have them.

 

Once again @Former-Member, i am so sorry i missed your message, oh i am posting here becuase the other thread is closing today, so please if you would like to talk to me, please post here, i would like to chat with you some more, you are a nice lady and i do hope we can become friends.

 

Take care.  be kind to yourself.

 

Jacques

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Hi Jacques no not drinking enough water or eating enough just trying to keep the ibs under control. The only water I drink is when I get my medication.
I hope you've had a good day

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I miss your hugs I feel safe when you hug me

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Oh My angel, can you at least try drinking 1 bottle of water? it will not affect your IBS, i know because i drink lots of water, i do understand staying away from food, i had that problem on sunday.

 

Please for me angel, try to drink at least some water.

 

It has been ok, moving cabinets back and forth, i had to go to the tip which gave me great anxiety, but got rid of all the rubbish, after tea i am thinking of painting 1 wall in the loungeroom.  see how i go.  Otherwise a bit of a lazy day today.  I was lying in bed all afternoon with a headache, i was thinking of you in your classes, worred that you are so scared, i feel so helpless to protect you my angel.

 

Well without further adue, a big, big hug for my best friend. let me know if i squeeze too tight Smiley Very Happy 

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Well today was funny with the cattle, the little calf, well not so little now, the farm hand came in to give him some grain, he was jumping and bucking around the food trough so excited, when the farm hand went to put the grain in the trough calf had his head under the farm hands arm, making him spill most of the grain on the ground, he was so excited he just started eating it right out of the bag, he is a cheeky little one, sometimes he gets a bit too eager and gets a smak on the nose, but not too often.  he is too cute.  all white with aa black nose and long black eye lashes.

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Thanks for the hug j I got stuck in class sitting next to the man that scares me. I was frozen to the spot the whole time I couldn't breathe and I thought I was going to throw up

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OMG Karen, are you ok? did he try anything? please tell me he left you alone today? 

 

Oh Karen i get that too, if i see someone like i did on sunday, i can't move, my whole body feels like it weighs a ton and i can't physically move my feet. i start stuttering and feel like throwing up too. 

 

Oh my angel, in my arms you will always be safe. another hug me angel, you have had a really tough day. but please look on the bright side only 2 more sleeps till you hopefully go home.

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He was so close to me and I should have got up and moved. Im not feeling ok cant stop shaking I told my nurse and she told me just dont think about it .
ive still got one more class to go.