Good Morning!

[Historylover]

@SmilingGecko I'm a little perplexed as to why my last post is not showing up - yet you've replied to it. Malfunctioning abounds?

[Former-Member]

Hey there @Historylover - it appears that an earlier moderator has sent an email out to you in regards to that particular post that has disappeared.
It might give more details in the email.
thanks @Former-Member

[SmilingGecko]

@Historylover I got notification of your last post via e-mail and when I clicked on it to go through to the SANE good morning thread it would not bring up your message for some reason, it was deleted but I responded anyway

[TAB]

Yes I agree @SmilingGecko

[Appleblossom]

@greenpea 

We are ALL a work in progress.

Best wishes to you and family.

@Historylover

Feeling like "I dont fit" is more common than I ever believed.  One fella I knew who was always the centre of attention believed that, but at core his self esteem was in tact, which made it easier for him to keep rolling his social ball, come what may ...

 @SmilingGecko @Former-Member @MDT 

Have a GOOD DAY all ...

[SmilingGecko]

@Appleblossom hope you are doing well today.  Had a GP appointment now trying to relax

[Historylover]

I know @Appleblossom. No-one, in my opinion, is what they appear. We are all human with human frailties. I acknowledge mine. So you think I should just keep rolling my social ball? I'm trying but I just keep getting knocked down. I can just never do the right thing by anyone, it seems. Whinge done. 

Are you having a good day? I'm thinking of doing another course after you mentioned yours. What is yours about? Is it online or face-to-face?

I hope you're doing alright. 

[Appleblossom]

 @Historylover Back from an Aldi shop with son, tho needed diplomacy and eggshell walking.

Was accosted by a friendly woman wanting to shoot the breeze while at the fruit and veg.  Her circumstances were somewhat similar to mine. {edit for privacy}

What you do with your social ball is up to you with your best intuition.... all things considered etc. No need to be premature about either study or socilising if it is not the right things for you right now. 

Hearing you about being the new kid on block.  That was my problem growing up, but have settled for last 20 years.  Found it hard to make friends, but am realising it is more due to the difficult circs, and how difficult my circs really were.  For me, they were normal.

Eg lady I met today, was born in a displaced persons camp, but still had a softer ride over all than I.  She was shopping with her son like I was .... yada yada yada ... so maybe my learning is ... I have finally arrived at the social ...highlight of gasbagging at the market .... Yippee

I think I needed a serious irl social withdrawal in order to come to terms with various things called "norms" and my particular circs. I do not advocate willingly placing yourself among abusers, tho, so how to manage social life ... idk .... atm ... I am less a pushover than I was .... and less nice ....been claiming grumpy ole lady status for about 5 years  ...Better be on own than overly compromise to be social .... calling out BS much quicker ... but still I cant help myself and am forgiving and friendly ....Been thinking about doing a Masters for 10 years .... this is first I enrolled.  Maybe I just been checking things out ....social life is not always a piece of cake .... people nice on the surface can be very unnice deep down ....

[Appleblossom]

@SmilingGecko 

Was GP appointment alright?

[Judi9877]

Good morning and good afternoon @Appleblossom @Historylover @SmilingGecko @TAB @Former-Member @greenpea @MDT @oceangirl @Shaz51 @Anastasia @tyme @cloudcore @Clawde @Daisydreamer @Former-Member @outlander @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope and all forumites here. I hope your day has gone well. Happy Valentine’s Day by the way!

I’ve just finished my day off at Tafe via zoom online and to be honest, I’m glad it’s over. I’ve had a day where I’ve been struggling to focus and haven’t been interpreting things properly in written form which has been very frustrating and annoying for me. It’s like I’ve been getting mixed messages and I’m taking things personally and my emotions have been really affected by all of this, including causing me confusion with emails to my psychologist when scheduling an appointment. It really hasn’t been my day to the point where I’ve even though of not communicating just to save me any more problems at the present time for fear of upsetting people as well as myself. I think it’s time for me to shut down for a while and have a rest until I can sort myself out mentally!

Take care and stay safe!

Judi9877☺️💐