Good Morning!

[Historylover]

Hello @SmilingGecko. What can I say? Socializing is not easy. I think I have tried everything and just don't seem to be able to fit in anywhere. There is nothing I would rather do than to socialize and to have friends, so please believe me when I say that I have tried everything. I don't know what else I can do. I simply don't fit. 

[Clawde]

Hi @Historylover,  and @greenpea ( 💋) , your Clawdes freind  ! Thankyou 👋👋👋👋. 

[Historylover]

Good Morning, @Clawde. Another day, for me - more of the same. I hope yours is more promising, my friend. 

[TAB]

Oh I forgot @Clawde okay Happy Valentines to you 😇

[SmilingGecko]

Hello @Historylover its a common problem amongst the mentally ill.  I don't socialise as I live in a semi regional district and since moving out this way have not met new people.  I don't think folk are prepared to give the mentally ill a chance either owing to discrimination.  There are so many of us living alone without supports 🙁 You have my solidarity.

[TAB]

Whenever I mentioned living alone on here were lots of others @SmilingGecko Was only talking to friend in real life IRL yest about how little we each go out . They live alone too, ok nowhere near each other

[Historylover]

There's something going on with posting and supporting here at the moment.

@SmilingGecko. 

I don't and never will consider myself 'mentally ill', @SmilingGecko. And those who are psychologically abused like myself are just that - 'psychologically abused/manipulated'. Resulting damage is inevitable, and the ability for sufferers to express themselves is impeded by the damage they have endured. 

I have tried to find differently working networks, but they are all the same. Perhaps that's how people work - they form groups and need a fall guy, a scapegoat, an underling - someone who does the lowly chores for them, which keeps their group rolling along, until their underling leaves and they do the same to the next 'applicant'. And the underling is therefore always the newcomer in any group, over whom the established have a distinct advantage. 

I have gone from one network in which I am psychologically abused to the next and the next...I cannot break away from these reconstructions of past networks regardless of how hard I try. And it becomes more and more impossible as time passes. Each new network I try presents different people playing the same roles.

I don't know how to beat the 'establishment' or even how to join them. How I'd love to be established and welcome newcomers. 

[SmilingGecko]

Yes more people just being by themselves.  I think there is an epidemic of loneliness and lack of connection in todays world.  I would love to have someone I considered a close friend but would rather be alone than to connect with someone who was not right for me @TAB 

[SmilingGecko]

@Historylover imprints in your energy body from past trauma can attract similar experiences I'm led to believe.  I have to clear my energy body frequently as a matter of course.  I don't have access to healers as I can't afford them but do energy clearings for myself in the hope it achieves the same aims as having a facilitator. Clearings is a bit of a buzz word and I thought if more advanced people were doing it then it would also be good for me to do it too! I've seen lots of healers offering it.  I would discuss this problem with someone who offers energy clearings and mention your past and ask how it can work for you if that so calls you 😊

[MDT]

Hey SG morning to you good friend
Have you got an opinion on hallucinogenics?
Sorry if I asked before.