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[Former-Member]

@avant-garde it's definitely alot and i really want to create my own shelving for them cos the ones I have really don't fair to well with the weight of them. 

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Oh Grems poor Babe. You are going through hell right now @Former-Member 

You must be exhausted. Don’t fight it. Just let it go.

Big HUGS 🫂 

[Former-Member]

@Glisten hell doesn't even begin to describe it. 

I can't even lose focus for a second cos that's all it takes for me to lose control. I'm exhausted but I'm unable to rest. 

I just want this to end already. 

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@Shaz51 my Shazzy, I had a good day. It was a horsey people day. Six of us hanging out doing horsey things.

Enjoying the difference between English and Western riding.

I got none of the things done that are pushing a Tuesday deadline. But that’s what 4am is for, right? 😁

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@Former-Member Your poor body and your poor brain 🧠 

How long does it take?

[Former-Member]

@Glisten at the moment it's just constant. I have no idea when it will ease, if at all. I doze off for a few minutes only to wake up struggling to breathe cos my body is in such a state of panic. It's been like this for about 5 hours now. 

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Grems @Former-Member I don’t know what to say. You’re in a safe place atm? Are there people to help you get through this?

[Former-Member]

@Glisten define a safe place, i never really feel safe anymore no matter where I am. No I don't have anyone to help me through this other than here in the forum. I see my doctor tomorrow and I'm really just focused on trying to make it to that appointment which feels so far away right now. But even then I know it's not going to change anything. 

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Grems @Former-Member you are proof that we are in a constant state of feeling. We feel ALL the time.

My daughter said she felt emotional. I responded we are always emotional. We are a cluster of nerve endings.

A big powerful horse can kick down a door 🚪 Yet a fly 🪰 lands on the horse’s back and makes the horse’s entire coat quiver.

This is Mac and Lenny.

Mac on the left, won’t drink out of his water trough if I move it.

Lenny on the right, will counter act my body weight if I lose a stirrup.

This is Dougie 

Dougie is a retired race horse 🏇 Won quarter of million dollars. This horse will run at me full throttle and STOP ✋🏼 at my hand.

You’re coming with me today and we are going to groom these horses.

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@avant-garde Allergic to vanilla beans?!

And all other vanilla products?

That’s horrible