ever wonder why

[EternalFlower]

Hey @maddison just wanted to let u know its not a heavy subject for me at all 

Haven't been here as the weekend has been really rough.

I haven't been myself really sadly . Your post concerned me a bit and I'm sorry ur struggling with thoughts of sh. It is a painful time it seems and people aren't able to hear this sometimes, which makes it worse. I hope U are ok and supported. I used my grounding object in court and it really helped but not sure if that helps others. My grounding object is a ring. 

Are you feeling any better ? Xo

[maddison]

I was thinking of you today @EternalFlower 

I am ok. I appreciate you reaching out to me 

Oh, that's right - I was thinking how we used to do our friendly weekend check-in.

I'm sorry to read you had to go to court. I didn't realise your legal issues were this intense. I am here if you need to vent about anything. Thankyou so much for assuring me that nothing I say is too heavy for you. I do worry about burdening others. I guess, people can simply not read, if they are not in the headspace to deal - or reply when ready. I might consider letting go of the idea that my problems are a burden. 

Yes, it was really lovely for me to be able to share that with you. 

I'm in a funny head space too. I'm myself & not. It's like I am confused...& know who I am. Seeing simultaneously. I don't mind it - I like not being locked in, I'm not always comfortable or certain. It's been unnerving.

I love that you had your ring with you. 

I have to go because my phone is drained.

❤️🌸💜🌻

[EternalFlower]

Hi @maddison it's to me a myth that people here trigger of upset me

Triggering is not from here really

I hope u are OK and thanks for offering to jear and listen. You're very supportive 

I'm OK here but maybe echausted from life.

I am still seeking psw. 

I remember speaking to Dr and telling him " I feel u look at me always trying to diagnose me and see everything through a clinical lens"

"Well, I'm a clinician!"... lol yes. But I love speaking to people who relate and see us all as humans. No clinical barriers. That is what I feel here as we are all the same, all equal.

[maddison]

This is too deep for me to be able respond adequately @EternalFlower 

     thankyou 

I agree too with triggers statements....& not. I think I was having similar thought this Arvo. I won't go into it. I guess it's basically the idea of, closing ones eyes does not equal no monster? 

I am so afraid.

I'm sorry you are feeling exhausted by life. Yep, can relate. Another day...who knows?!? Exhausting.

I sound bleak.

Baddish mood.

Ok... here's the thing that's really getting me down.

I'm progressing. I feel awesome. Yep, I've got this. A new step - brave, new....& yet I still trip. 

Join this group, chat to counsellor, journal, reveal, admit, dance, sing, spin, reconnect, commit, BREATH.... Totally got this... An hour later I'm lost....again.

❤️🌻

[maddison]

Hi @tonys 

I trust you are good and happy and the farm is your personal fragrance of heaven, in this mixed-up masterpiece.

I miss you and your letters. Your letters are surprising, interesting, profound, fresh,..and the most important, funny.

I have tried to accept that I lost you. I have been miserable. You make me happy. Happier than I've ever been ! ! ! You give me Joy. I really like joy. I can hardly believe you!

[tonys]

@maddison  Hello Maddison and @wordman .

I just spent an hour writing to you both and the machine timed me out and this time did not save it.   Got the identity mismatch warning..  ?

I'm awfully crook at the moment but on the improve.  Soon as i feel a bit better will try again.

I do hope you are both well,  and on the receiving end of  smiles and positive energy.

Very best to you both...   Tonys   mb1

[wordman]

@tonys @maddison Hello to both of you. I am grateful for your reply. I think about you two A lot. My quest has been successful. I wish yours to be the same quest as mine. 

Kind Regards

Wordman

[maddison]

Hi @tonys @wordman 

Thankyou for your letters. Absolutely perfect timing! Big smiles here  thunder, hail, rain - summer storm.

Please rest @tonys. Thankyou for writing me. 

[maddison]

That is beyond beautiful @wordman 

[wordman]

@maddison Dear Maddison. Thank you very much for your reply. Your comments are what makes me feel that my efforts are well worth it. I feel humbled and delighted that you respond with such positivity. 

Kind Regards 

Wordman