Coming to terms with reality

[eudemonism]

Today is going to be a good day for me. Around sunrise I'll be going walking with the dog. Perhaps along a beech ora stretch of the coast line. (When the bridge reopens it will be a case of wondering around down town ) i can go and visit mum and dad if i wish. Or catch up with one of my friends. (Have met new people over the weekend... so we'll see what becomes of that in the coming weeks. A duck don't fly witha goose. Nor does a goose get served as a duck. I'm going to makea batch of braised steak and onions at some stage. And serve it with mash and beans and some buttered bread. But am working my way through a batch of spaghetti bog at the moment.

I'll be spending some time alone today. And I'm hooinha friend gives me a phone call before sunrise. I find the questions against questions helps me clarify what I'm doing for the day.

I put a small chest freezer on lay bye at a second hand shop the other day. And I'm questioning if it was good money for value compared against a brand new one.

There's vehicles on the market within my price range. And I've got the loan approved and paper work just waiting to sign. And I'm hoping i get get a vehicle that will be suitable to. Do a few odd jobs with....... do some camping. Do some travelling. And be better suited to my lifestyle. The car i got at the moment. Does a bit of tapping and knocking when i first start it up in the mornings. But i just hope it don't break down and does many more miles for me.

Have a good day everyone.

[Adek]

Its 3.58am here...and i am happy to read on your post....am happy for you. Thanks for writing @eudemonism.

[Adek]

Last night i attended a lecture, discussing a book on spiritual development. It was the gathering where i get to sit together with my beloved friends, read Quran, listen to lectures, pray, have supper, exchange our experiences for the month and hug everyone before we depart. Theres another weekly gathering during brunch hours which i frequent on tuesdays at the mosque, only for ladies. These are the gatherings that i always look forward to and never failed to boost our spirits..just like the church gathering u mentioned @eudemonism.

Last Thursday, the psychotherapist gave me an assignment when i brought up issues on interpersonal skills, self defensive mechanism and how i thought it had masked my personality. I was asked to browse online for self defensive patterns and mechanisms and try to relate and recall when and whether ... that mechanism became obvious throughout my lifetime and discuss when we meet again in 3 weeks time. Still procrastinating on that assessment...

[eudemonism]

I think im going to play everything bye my senses from now on. Meaning depending on what my senses are telling me. Determines my decisions.

People from the system and religion mean well. But at the end of the day. It comes down to whata person needs. Which can be broad and varied.

They are a hindrance as much as they are a help. People have caused me all my problems. And people think they are the solution to all my problems in life. But its just not true. Ive known what is best for me all along and the more support i get with making this happen. The better off i will be. Instead of all this interfering and meddling with my life. And what i know is best for myself.

[A2Z]

Hi @Adek

I love reading Quran and listenning to it too. Today, I went to the mosque [not usual for a Friday] I went to the Dr to because I was down with flue. I forgot it was Friday and was pleseantly surprise to see so many people in the mosque. I use to go on Saturdays to practice my recitation but not any more. Today, it made me feel  that I should start my Saturday routine. Visiting the mosque helps me calm down and focus on what is important. 

What did you find out about the self defensive machanism? All the best on your assessment. I also have an assessment due in couple of days. Take care

[A2Z]

Hi @eudemonism

We have to listen to our hearts and see what is right. Others cannot determine life for us we face the consequences of our actions. All I do is listen to people and if they treat me with respect and I feel good in my soul and beneficia I will take on board what they say. If it makes me un easy and if they treat less than them I will be cautious.

System and religions when preached by people who have self interest and have their own agenda, it is best to stay away form them. 

Just curious - so what is best for you? and what is 'all this interfering and meddlng' in your life?

All the best. Good night

[Adek]

Thanks for saying hi @A2Z . I hope you have recovered from that flu. Yeah..did some research on that s-d mechanism and it turned out there are many forms of mental s-d. Mental self-defense is actually the ability to get into the 'proper mindset' for executing a physical s-d technique. And in my case..i think i started using that many forms of mental s-d since being in the previous polygamous marriage. Yet to discuss with my therapist whether i did it accordingly etc in our next rendezvous.

@eudemonism didn't mean to meddle or interfere into anybody's life but as far as i remembered..i was merely answering questions put forward in here or responding to them by sharing stories and links when i can't describe in my own words.. Perhaps i hardly asked anybody personal questions cuz i am really not keen to delve into people's private life unless they share. Curious to find out from my therapist whether am being self centered and whether that is a form of mental s-d after all 😅.

@Appleblossom did u manage to find out on the free events and forum around you? The good news is now u can download from the playstore an app called Eventbrite. Set your location ie state/country and choose your interests... the lists will come flowing in. Hope u hv fun browsing in there.

There is beauty..in every day🌻🐝

[Adek]

@Former-Member i hope you are doing good and had a good time at your hilly group meet. Am glad u have decided to have a check up regarding that heart racing and palpitations that you've been having. Hopefully..nothing serious is going on in there. The consistent walks you've been doing should have done some good.

Take care xx 💐💐

[Former-Member]

Hello @Adek

thank you for thinking of me and asking after my health

have heart holster to pick up on Tuesday ad then heart specialist apptment after

gp also refer skin specialist for bcc suspect on Wednesday...

mum has also been told needs skin check up possible cancer...she now even more depressed

tried discussing with twin who responds not like that with her it must be how I talk to her...silly me I forgot depression is contagious!...when she asked re my heart....she went into great detail yet again about herself whI have eventually went haywire ...I am over being lectured by her......thanked her for lack of compassion....told her I didn't need this and hung up.....I now feel guilty...concerned upset her...affect her health

had coffee this afternoon with friend recovering from lung cancer...last two tests tumours have shrunk...we had coffee then went to park sat in sun surrounded by eight ducks and other birds...she didn't want to leave...I had to though after a couple of hours..we were eating out...she sent me a message ..she loved it ..must do it more often... Nice.....I didn't upset her!!

other friend has melanomas in brain ...not going that well

so overall don't assume that life can't get any worse

sorry for gloomy reply...have had enough

oh Idont think eudemonismI was referring to anyone on here I think he was talking about people in the flesh 

hope that life is being kinder to you xx