Coming to terms with reality

[eudemonism]

Hi Readers, i am suffering from "mental health issues" and it is an ongoing, daily battle. I am pretty much constantly wrestling with the thoughts going on in my mind. And my psychical life seems too be suffering for it. (There is a huge difference between physical and mental ) something is definitely not right! So each day I'm waking up and going about my routine. And over the last few days, weeks and months. I have been noticing changes in my mentality toward myself, others and life. And some questions such as, what is my life about? And what should my objectives be? Have arisen... of course like we all are, I'm subject too making decisions... and there has been the same options in front of me time and time again for months on end. And it becomes rather draining and mundane. And i feel myself going around in circles like something simple just ain't connecting.

I enjoy writing, art, music. And peace of mind... walking, reading, meditation. Taking care of myself. Socialising. Etcetera. Getting ahead, getting in front. Planning, dreaming and so on. And do my best to look after myself. While accepting that it can only ever be so much.

But there just something not quite right. And I'm suffering for it on a daily basis. And I'm tired and fed up with going through the same stuff everyday. And in all honesty. Alot of my suffering comes from prospective and thought processes.

Does anyone wanna talk with me about some things that might help? In particular dealing with people no matter who they are. Can be very stressful and cause lots of procrastinating about pros and cons. In particularly people who i think about reaching out to for support. Because of dilemmas dramas and social dynamics. And picking up on things that "aint really happening" "gut feelings type of stuff " "intuition" that type of thing. And enjoying time with people is great! I just tend to be overly preoccupied with symptoms to be worried about socialising sometimes "Symptoms which involves others"

[eudemonism]

Hi there, i hear what your saying! Life is tough at the best of the time for many people out there. It ain't what it is cracked up to be in the brochure that is for sure. Have you spoken to a gp or a psychologist recently? They have all training and qualifications to help. Plus they full of good advice and hints and tips. I hear what your saying. It's quite common. I advise you too back down from bargaining with any thoughts that make you feel stressed. And do what your body needs too do. When it needs to do it. Set strong boundaries with people. And consider the circumstances they are coming from which would make them act the way they do and it should help you. All people really want is to be accepted and understood. But unfortunately. Dilemmas. Dramas and social dynamics complicate things. I can tell the powers that be are very fond of thee. And show thy favor for your hard work.

[eudemonism]

Yes @eudemonism you are very wise and smart. And know exactly what you need and when you need it. Don't be afraid to go the extra mile for yourself. And have a good laugh about things. Cause the rest of population probably is. Anyway on a serious note. I've had an epiphany that it's all in my mind. And it's just my symptoms playing games with me. None of it is true. And cannot be proved. So just do the basics in life... do not make it complicated or hard on yourself. That would be crazy.

[eudemonism]

Ok @eudemonism I'll check in on you tomorrow to make sure you're ok. Sleep well. Sweet dreaming. My friend. I'll say a prayer for you ok xx

[Former-Member]

Hello and rest easy

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[Former-Member]

Hello @eudemonism

Thank you for sharing with us, it seems like you do have a lot of thoughts going on, such as big questions about life and coming to terms with reality, you also said you are looking after yourself and you have some strong interests and hobbies, yet you still feel like something is missing but you are unsure what exactly that is?

Is this maybe about having a goal or working towards something, is there something you would like to do with your life that is perhaps more fulfilling? Some people find this is through volunteering and giving back to others, some people might enjoy travelling and learning about another culture, is there something that you feel like may drive and inspire you?

I think it is normal to reflect on your life and feel like there is more that you could be doing, I know I struggle with this, I have regrets about certain life choices, but these thoughts are not so helpful in pushing me forward to do the things that fulfill me in life.

It's hard, I get that and I hear you, just some thoughts I am having and hope they make sense!

Lunar 🙂

[eudemonism]

You know @eudemonism i don't blame you for thinking, feeling and acting the way you do. The last thing i would be doing if i were you. Is disregarding all the stuff going on in your mind. Because from perfectly normal person too perfectly normal person. Who are both plainly as sane as they come. I am sure we both know they all stem from real life injustices you have had happen to you. Injustices that nobody cares about or wants to solve. And they are warning signs. They are signals. They are real life thoughts. Feelings and actions that are causing you distress. Which have all been caused bye injustices that have come upon you. And you know exactly what to do about. Just don't let society or other people think you're somehow mentally ill. For doing what your intuition suggests you do. Too combat against a world that is full of societal injustices and interpersonal injustices. Cause that would be wrong! So be tough. Be strong. Be discerning and diligent. And don't fall into the trap of victimization and being a person who needs help. From the perpetrators and abusers of society. Just to feel half decent about yourself. And to feel human. And like you apart of a tribe. Where you have what you socially need. Don't play the game of injustices for no one. Take care my friend. And trust yourself! And be at peace! Until next time xx everything you have been through and are going through and will go through is a perfectly normal reaction based process which is protecting you from allowing injustices to happen over and over again. This shows many upon many good traits within yourself. And that's A ok with me.

Yours truly Smokey Writer

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[eudemonism]

That's right my friend. It sounds like you're saying. You can either feed off of injustices. Or you can fight against injustices. Perhaps all mental illness cases. Are just a case of people fighting against injustices? You'll have to let me know what you think about that brain bender tonight! And turn society on it's head like you usually do. Thanks for the support. It is appreciated in every possible way xx !! Feeling very much at peace and at ease with you bye my side. Someone say the best things in life are really hard to find. And i understand that. Now you are by my side.

[Former-Member]

Hello @eudemonism

I'd like to check in with you and ask how you feel you are travelling at the moment. I've noticed that you are having a conversation with yourself on the thread, you have also had comments from another member and moderator. I'm wondering if you would like to offer any conversation in response to what they have said? Sometimes when people are writing in this style it can be because they aren't feeling as though they are managing very well, I'm wondering if this is the experience you are having?

Please know that we are here, listening and wanting to offer support. Can we offer you support here today? You mentioned talking with a GP- is this something you have in place? A treatment team? 

I'm sorry there are lots of questions, just trying to get an understanding of where you are at with things at the moment. The Sane Help Centre is also available on 1800 187 263 during Monday-Friday 9am-5pm if you would like 1:1 support or someone to talk to on the phone.

I've just finished strawberries and a piece of chocolate cake for afternoon tea, are you having something to eat this afternoon? 

Pebbles 🙂

[eudemonism]

I know what you are saying @eudemonism but what can you really do when you are up against the world? You don't like the world. And the world don't like you. Nobody is prepared to compromise! So what do ya do? It is not at all uncommon. You have tried your very best. And done all you can. Your time of resting is all you really have from the attacks of your memories. And your attempts too move forward. Which are hindered bye protection measures. And leave you feeling like you want no more. How humble and honorable of you. Too admit your defeat against the treacherous world! Now, you have realized that this is all there is. Where do you go too from here my friend?