Coming to terms with reality

[eudemonism]

Good morning @Adek tales from another land are so interesting to read. I'm sure you would have wonderful stories of your travels to different regions and countries around the world. I'm in the process of trying to get a small 4wd and doing some camping. And in the distant future hopefully getting a caravan or trailer. It's a man thing i suppose. Plus, gotta do something with my life. They say travel makes one wise. Thanks for being concerned about my wellbeing and considering how it feels to be going through the injection phase time and time again. Perhaps because of your experiences of your mum receiving the depot injection? (Sorry! Bit of a bad subject to be talking about )

[eudemonism]

Hello and good morning @Former-Member ? I'm interested to find more out about your lifestyle and what you occupy your days with. You've mentioned walking and a few other things that are going on. Have you got any regular chores around the house that feel good to get done and be on top of? Or relationships that need tending too? I'm sorry to hear you anxiety is flaring up it must be terrible to be going through it? With me, and from what I can tell about other people is, anxiety is a fear based thing. Which involves the influence of other people. And it's a case of trying to counteract the scenarios which are unfolding in ones mind. I've found the traits of forgiveness, humility, love, peace, joy (surrounding the characters involved and wanting whats best for them ) and acceptance of the scenario of which the fear based scenario is caused bye can help. Plus, noticing the negative thinking patterns. And then focusing on a goal driven plan for ones self and their wellbeing helps. And prayer! There is somebody listening when you pray. The essence of believing in a higher force which is always of good nature can sometimes help also. Facing fears and not feeling like you're overcome bye them or have to surrender and sacrifice your self worth too them is also something i find helpful. And then retraining the thinking patterns to a more functional way. Might as well be busy with good things from dawn to dusk. And plants seeds in the morning so they grow bye afternoon. Hope that helps.

Take care. Speak soon.

[Former-Member]

Another quick reply @eudemonism @Adek

I went for an hour walk today which I loved

witnessed three horses galloping together in a field...owner looking on...apparently most of horses and there are many there are rescue animals

I have been comparing the scenery in my mind to where I live and the English and welsh different places where I walked...interesting...I was then reminded of all the different places I have walked in my life...so contemplating...also distracting...focussing to try to allay this anxiety that just won't go away

.I had apptment on Monday with heart specialist...ended up going back to hospital emergency for husband's heart....7 hours later long drive home

cats not impressed 

Apart from walking I love gardening...listening to music...reading..love the ocean and the beach when not many people there...don't get there often enough

good to hear that you are loving your dog ...he is going to be such a good companion 

do you have any pets @Adek?

well night night again for me

take care my friends...will try to respond sooner

[A2Z]

Hi @eudemonism

Thank you for the insights you have given me. I am touched by the reply. Sorry, I cannot say it sound typical to me. I can feel a lot of sadness, frustration and at the same time aware of the strength you have.

I am saddened to read about your situation and have respect for you for taking time to explain to me. Thank you.

I also note that you are aware of your challenges amd the way you have expressed yourself shows that you have control of your thoughts. With the failed support you needed I see there is a lack of confidence in the system. Thank you for sharing.

I have been away form this forum to complete my assessment tasks and finally completed. Thank God. I have to sort my place before I leave to visit my parents. I may not have frequent access to internet when I visit my parents.

I wish you all the best and pray that you come closer to being the good person you want to be. Take care

Will drop by before I leave to my parents 🙂

[A2Z]

Hi @eudemonism 

This is an uplifting post 🙂

I miss camping. I am up for it anytime... so can't be just a man thing 🙂 I have a wish list. A road trip to Uluru is one of them. I love travelling and make an effort to go somewhere I haven't been before. 

Good morning @Adek how are you? Good morning @Former-Member @Appleblossom Wish you all the best

Again running much past bed time - Coles ran out of flourless orange cake. Hoping to get it for a colleague searched the internet without much luck. Too late to do anything now. 

Wish you all a great Thursday 🙂 another day to make difference. 

Smile back to me 🙂

[eudemonism]

Ah @A2Z and @Former-Member i think that happiness is an act of the devil. And needs someone else to be above. In some form of sadistic way. That my honest opinon about how it works. Maybe you can reflect upon this scenario as simply food. And make your own assessment of what i say.

It is basically like. Inflicting control upon one or some and expecting them to do the same. So they can reap the rewards in return also. And providing them with a prize which is disguised. When really they only worried about themselves and what they need and want. Everything to do with other human beings on a social level. Involves a sadistic hyracy. And it hurts to think. That some, use it too their advantage. And, appear to do very well for themselves in life. This is where the need for a diety steps in and intervenes. Is it all making sense?

[eudemonism]

If the hidden meaning behind my words. Means my diety comes against yours. Who do you think will win?

[Adek]

Morning @A2Z @Former-Member @eudemonism @Appleblossom. Its 4.50am here...stil drowsy. Another visit to the hospital today seeing psychotherapist. @Former-Member please stay safe and strong...xx

[Appleblossom]

Hi @eudemonism @A2Z @Adek @Former-Member @Former-Member

It was sunny today but I was also working indoors a lot, which is good as my skin is much paler than it used to be.

I like camping too, so yeah not just a guy thing.

Chores are shifting for me.  There are some non-negotiable tasks, but my ex husband played mind games around chores, the benefits of routine and regular activities and in the end he won, and I just do what I can according to a reasonable hierarchy of needs.

One reason I loved camping as it makes the need and genesis of chores transparent for kids.

I talked to a family from Singapore today.

Hope you are all doing alright.

[Adek]

Hello @Appleblossom. I recalled the days when the kids were small till up to them entering university, for some reasons..i had to take the responsibilities in bringing them up and catering to all their needs. I considered it was best at that time cuz i was better paid and wished to minimize contact with him. Their father remarried and has his own family.

Those days are over now..kids all 20s.. youngest 18 and the last 2-3 yrs ive been encouraging them to stay with their dad on their semester breaks...shifting all the weight on him now..since i have retired and not well. Not easy though...had done it through the courts. Godwilling there are 4 more years to go till the kids all complete their degree each. Need as much time for myself now..for building inner strength, pondering and listing down my next 5yrs plan projection.

Done camping all those yrs @eudemonism. Most of them on field trips into the rainforest and peatswamps getting specimens for my thesis. Then twice annually with students for training..night walking, jungle trekking, hiking and team building. We had absailing and flyingfox too a couple of times. Take enough sulphur with you to keep away snakes and poisonous arachnids etc.