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Coming to terms with reality
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03 Aug 2017 03:59 PM
03 Aug 2017 03:59 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
@eudemonism I'm sorry to hear you don't feel the world likes you. I'm imagaining you are giving it your all to fight your way through what is happening in your life. That takes strength, courage and determination to do, pretty amazing qualities.
I'm going to send you an email, because I care and want to 🙂
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03 Aug 2017 04:06 PM
03 Aug 2017 04:06 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
It's ok audiendence 'it's all apart of the show. Need not worry or stress. Xx p.s. all has been a derivative of a man's experience of reality.
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03 Aug 2017 04:16 PM
03 Aug 2017 04:16 PM
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03 Aug 2017 05:09 PM
03 Aug 2017 05:09 PM
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04 Aug 2017 07:18 AM
04 Aug 2017 07:18 AM
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04 Aug 2017 03:07 PM
04 Aug 2017 03:07 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
hello again @eudemonism @Former-Member
You have written responses at great length to talk about how you are feeling.
I have read that your have voices, or are they personalities talking to you. You seem to find some comfort in responding to them as well.
Do you find by writing down these different conversations, that you are more at rest within yourself?
Does it help you look at different aspects of how you are feeling at the moment?
My only concern is your last few comments:
"But because of cold, malicious and self absorbed nature of the human race. All will be well my friend. It is not your fault society is making you a prisoner of psychiatry until the end. Take care xx"
there is much wrong with the human race today, I agree, however when I am feeling very unwell I try very hard to focus on my environment, nature. I find that very soothing. I cannot fix the human race but I can live life according to my values and principles.
Psychiatry, just the word itself sounds intimidating. However I have been receiving treatment from this form of medicine for a long time on and off. The individual person providing the treatment is more important than the system itself. Very important to feel safe and able to trust for any type of treatment to work.
You are welcome to talk further on here of course. You might even want to tell me that I am wrong. I am not trying to diagnose you or tell you that I have the answers. I merely want you to know that you are safe writing here.
take care
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04 Aug 2017 03:21 PM
04 Aug 2017 03:21 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
Basically, i am the same person. With the same abilities and levels of competency as i was two days before this system engaged with my life. So it an ironic situation! Plus, in all honesty! The same contributing factors which allowed me to be diagnosed, categorized, labeled and administered medication after they caged me like an animal... so i am really no closer to solving the actual problems then they are. Because perhaps the problem is not me! But a lack of support and basic human needs! Which i have always unfortunately been unable to provide myself with. And am still unable to do so...
Can you imagine how frustrating this must be for me? I aint denying that i got problems and I'm disabled. I'm standing up against the nonsense i have had too go through. Go through. And will go through. Just to survive. Makes life really not worth living as far as I'm concerned. But I'm lucky enough to have a lot of quiet time in my warm bed to block out all the nonsense i been put through. Go through and will have to go through. Just To survive. And feel half decent about myself. And give myself a false sense of independence. And ability to look after myself. And create a "quality if life "
There only so good a best case scenario can be. Before i realize i am clinically mentally ill. From outside causes that i am not in control of. And cannot really change how they effect me either. So i am hoping it is all making perfect sense... and also consider that medicatio side effects make it pretty god dam difficult.
Thats what i thinks about that.
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04 Aug 2017 03:37 PM
04 Aug 2017 03:37 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
thank you for replying.
apart from obvious symptoms of mental illness there are many other emotions that go hand in hand.
you explained very well how frustrating the system is.
You sound very determined and I sincerely think that you are to be commended for that determination.
I hope that if writing on here helps in any way, that you will continue to do so.
I apologise if I have trampled all over your feelings in my previous response.
Keep on believing in yourself at the end of the day when we feel that this society is failing us if we can still believe in ourselves mental illness has not beaten us
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04 Aug 2017 03:49 PM
04 Aug 2017 03:49 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
It's kind of like it has become methodical nightmare that i must endure through each day...
Each month i am crashing from withdrawal symptoms of the depot injection for about 4 days and it's taking me 3 days to get going again once the needle has been given to me. It's hard going. And when I'm running low and hanging for my next hit of medicine. Things get yucky.
A good day looks like. Sweep, vacuume, clean, tidy, organise, dishes, make bed, journal entry. Drive with dog. Walk along beech. Catch up with a friend or family member. Eat some nice food. Read. Meditate prayer. Garden.
It all depends on weather and if i have drank or used in past few days. Slept well or not. Symptoms status etcetera. Variations. The chaos theory.
I could be making and attending appointments with professional support. And trying harder. Listening to them, learning from them, getting opinions and advice with problems i am faced with. Expressing my symptoms. Thoughts. Feelings and actions to them.
Maybe even trying new medications. But quite my frame of mind is just. Phew! I'm tired. I had enough. I am churned out. There is no point. Don't wanna face the world. Couldn't be bothered. Etc. Etc. Etc.
My symptoms. Traits. Or patterns. Or routines. Are basically installed into my mind. Knee jerk reactions. And making the same old decisions.
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05 Aug 2017 12:32 PM
05 Aug 2017 12:32 PM
Re: Coming to terms with reality
Hello @eudemonism
I see that you are a very intelligent person with many interests. As you stated, you have strategies in place also. The fact that you have goals to is a credit to you.
I have goals and am struggling at the moment to get out of the house. I have resorted to isolating myself at times when life sucks.
You have a dog, animals are so much nicer than humans some of the time.
Humans do have a place in our lives also and this can be so hard to deal with at times.
I think that you are a brave person, battling with symptoms and dealing with side effects of depot injections each month, as you describe, can be so debilitating as I have read from other's experiences.
I cannot begin to understand how you get through your days.
I do know that you are a human being with determination, intelligence, compassion and love. You have contact with your family and friends at times. You have an animal whom you walk along the beach with.
I hope that in continuing to write on here you are helped through your pain and suffering in some way.
I understand why you would feel so tired at the moment. Exhausted is possibly how you are feeling.
Rest and regain some of that strength you have. Recuperate. Even the strongest and mightiest of man, have a time when they need to slow down, stop and check all systems. Let someone whom you trust know that you are doing this as a safety net.
please keep on writing on here
I will try to respond when I am able.
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