SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member am thinking of you

sending you a huge warm long hug xxxxxx

I cant do fancy photographs, flowers, chocolates for you xxx

no need to reply... have a big cry and get rid of some of that tension

then if need to ring a helpline..you are allowed to have help too xxx

[Owlunar]

@Faith-and-Hope

That is really a hard story - and having your friend make you promise to take care of her daughter - that would have been so difficult - what could you do about it when it seems her husband already had something set up

When it comes to friends I would imagine that when someone young dies the family members would be there in their numbers and hard to get a look in - the family goes first - I have lost five members of my family since 2005 and I had not thought about it but yes - the family goes first - every time - yet often - where were those people

There are so many stories - life is made up of them - how often do we feel left out when our grief is just as burdensome? Hold it up to the light - as you said Faith - and pray  

Thanks for sharing this story

Dec🎆🎉🎊🎇

[Former-Member]

Well, just went for a walk, put groceries away, watered garden, playing on phone - on chat line, admiring the glorious weather.

[soul]

It is lovely weather where I am too. Just planning where I go for my Sunday morning walk tomorrow @Former-Member. Might just make it a local one. Hope you continue to have a great weekend. 

[Former-Member]

Thanks @soul, needed to hear from someone just now, thank you ❤❤❤ Full moon is so bright out tonight, maybe that's why its such nice weather. 🌷🌿

[soul]

Watch out for werewolves @Former-Member. 

[Former-Member]

Hiya anyone free 💜💕 My day took on a life of its own. 10am coffee on the verandah I was spooked by a dark man looking intently into my yard while walking his little dog. i moved up out of sight as he came closer hut then, I couldn't believe it, he walked into my yard and called out to me. He noticed my tree and and gave me a quote and, well, having checked out his card, insurance, physique... I saw it as a Godsend answer to prayer, and timely since the last one fell and he said he will clean the gutters too. You have no idea how wonderful it will be to have that done. The gutters have been overflowing back flow into the house causing leaks 😞  I'll miss the shade but it has to go, such a messy tree close to the house. Chewi g up all my savings for Sydney trip but...

The chainsaw going all day is very disruptive to my peace of mind, agitating, plus worried about him swi going around like a monkey on his own. Hope he doesn't cause me trouble later, don't think so, gentle soul, hard worker. 

Must he me but all family contact seems strained. Think maybe I'm everyone's easy punching bag. Can't seem to say anything right. 

Got a fair bit done today, washing, kitchen, bins, floors, moved bed out of hallway (finally) & remade the whole thing, tidied up. But now I'm sore, and tired, were you like this in ya 50s  @Owlunar ? wish I could stop it progressing. 

Have apt with Dr in city tomorrow, she's called me in to discuss last bloods, probably just my iron levels still low. Then i have to race back for Ladies support group, or not, things always clash.  

Everyone was emotional at church today (re friend there who died), i couldn't handle it, andcthose beautiful children - had to leave. Her funeral is Wednesday, but not sure I can go, its at the same chapel where we viewed my girl 😞  How long do we go on avoiding things like funerals etc? because of the pain it brings? and avoiding just makes anxiety worse. Wish life wasn't so hard 😞 

Ouch, back hurting, better go get heat pack. I'm over this...

[Adge]

I hear you @Former-Member

I am realizing that Im avoiding things too. I never thought I was but I am.

I avoiding calling my Mum back to find out that my brother's mother in law has died.

I'm glad that you are getting maintenance stuff done, that's great.

People giving me funny looks or watching what I'm doing spook me too.

Adge

[soul]

Glad you got lots of things done @Former-Member. There will be a lot of grief surrounding the passing of your friend. Let it take its course but remember to find some joy as well. Hope you have a good week. 

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Adge, to know someone else feels the same about things. Even people spooking just with a look. Must admit, if he didn't have a cute dog with him... Sometimes ya just get a gut feeling about people. But these dad I engage brain also lol
Gave this guy every cent I could access in cash, that covers half the cost. He's happy to wait a fortnight for the rest, and come back in 2months. Living on credit now but hoping bit will be worth it. Some charge three times that amount. Such a hard worker. I get sore caoves changing a lightbulb.

@soul, how are you? Thanks for not leaving me too, and Thanks for your kind words. I'm in denial a bit about friend, doesn't make sense, she was touch and go for years, reading to he funeral notice today helps it sink in. I do have a strong undercurrent of sad sorrow, i'm not sure about finding JOY, with a funeral and all, how do YOU do that ?? maybe in small moments in th garden, that might he'll balance things.

Wish someone would come make me a cuppa, give a hug, let me fuss over them too, smile together, just for a day.

Laying on my back with the electric blanket on high - magic giant heatpack, Helps ☺