Raising Awareness of BPD - Flipping the Script

[Oaktree]

@Shaz51 

Yes it was yummy I get very excited any time I can have KFC but they are generally sooo expensive. Today they started a $8 Tuesday special. Basically you get a choice of one of 4 different buckets;

5 pieces of chicken

10 tenders

18 chicken nuggets 

8 wicked wings

It didn't really rain today - just grey and damp and depressing.

Meggle

[Shaz51]

not too productive my @Oaktree , but it was enough and my mr shaz who has Bipolar 2 needed some of the afternoon off xx

i am nearly ready for bed too 

[Oaktree]

@Shaz51 

Well have a good sleep, see you around maybe tomorrow.

Meggle

[Shaz51]

wow that is great value for lunch @Oaktree 

we brought a cooked chook from the shop for lunch and then chicken and spaghetti for dinner 

[Shaz51]

hope you have a good sleep too @Oaktree  tonight 

[Oaktree]

@Shaz51 

I love to buy a hot chook and crusty bread rolls with mayo. Yummy. Funny I was just saying that spaghetti bolognaise is our national dish.

Meggle

[Shaz51]

hot chook and crusty bread rolls with mayo. Yummy, -- ohhh yesss @Oaktree 

[Oaktree]

@Shaz51 

What's a community guide and would it make any difference to tell you that these forums are not initially very easy to navigate? 

Meggle

[Oaktree]

@Shaz51 

No wonder I am fat I like food that is bad lol. If only my favourite foods were vegetables 

Meggle

[BPDSurvivor]

Hello hello all my friends! @Shaz51 @Oaktree @Former-Member @Former-Member @BlueBay 

Once again, my head is down, working.... 1.5 weeks and then I'm on holidays! Yay!

I have been reflecting a lot lately. My work habits are NOT healthy. I work soooo much that there is no balance in my life. For me, I soothe myself by saying, "when I was depressed, I didn't/couldn't work....now, since I am able, make the most of it". 

In actual fact, I believe it is a part of my BPD which I still need to tackle. I use "work" as a strategy to avoid things. For example, when people ask me out for dinner, I say "I'm working". When people ask me to hang with them, I say, "I'm working". I have a fear of relationships - that when people get to know me, they won't like me. Hence, I "work" as an avoidance tactic.

I ideally, want things to be different. But the "over-working" ends up being my comfort zone, particularly because I enjoy my field of work.

On the outside, people think I'm super-social. But on the inside, only God knows, the anxiety and stress that comes with an "outing". If it is with kids who I can "hide behind", it's good. But if there are no kids around, I end up getting so anxious and stressed out.

I see this as the black/white BPD brain - it's all or nothing 😞

Can anyone relate?

BPDSurvivor

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