Okay .. another attempt to catch up with everyones posts from a few days ago. Sorry for the delay. I have been feeling a little overwhelmed by a number of things, so thank you for your patience. I will always get there in the end.
@Faith-and-Hope... thank you, thats a lovely thing to say ... "sitting together with you in yours is a way of bringing friendship and love into my life as a result of the suffering ..... so y'all are moments of joy for me ...... despite your own struggles and challenges, and deep sadness".
You then went on to say that you hope people in my life can see the self-sacrifice which goes into standing by Mr Sherry. The thing is ... I dont want people to see that. I really dont. I'm not trying to be a martyr or anything, that doesnt fit with who I am. It would embarrass me should people know any of this. Its all very much a closely guarded secret. I feel I would be unfairly judged by others, and likely seen as weak. Whereas I dont see myself as a weak person, but more a morally strong person. I have a very strong sense of right and wrong. Sure, I know what happens here is wrong, but it isnt me who is committing the wrong. However, it would be wrong of me to abandon him, as it would be very detrimental to him, and also to others.
Does any of this make sense @Faith-and-Hope? I hope it does. My head is a bit of a muddle today, and I am feeling very inadequate and undervalued, in all sorts of ways. But I figure you may understand some of this.
@Snowie.. Thanks for the love and hugs. I read that your hospital admission went well and you are settling in. Sorry to read that family visits are somewhat limited due to Covid-19 restrictions. But at least you are able to see them, albeit for only a short time. Best of luck with the commencement of your treatment tomorrow. I will be thinking of you.
Not a problem @eth ... I know you support me, and knowing that, is enough. I realise its hard for you to be here, having been there and done that. Thank you, I will try to read up a little about 'the cycle of abuse'. Your support and advice is valued and very much appreciated.
@Owlunar... I hope your MRI went well. Perhaps you have received your results already?
Yes I suppose thats very much a part of being a Highly Sensitive Person. We HSPs do typically feel things very intensely. Whether that be pain, disappointment, distress, grief, anger, resentment, loss, hurt ... in short we are much more emotionally reactive than the average person. We feel very deeply, and can become easily overwhelmed. We also take on other peoples problems and can be deeply impacted by their moods. All this can be very uncomfortable at times. There are times I feel very much overburdened with things. I am definitely feeling an emotional overload right now.
Your hard times, grief and sorrow has made you into who you are now @Owlunar. So it isnt all bad, because you have grown and adapted as necessary.
Sherry 🌺
s @Former-Member and @Faith-and-Hope You are two of the most staunch women I know. Take care won't you xx
