A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Shaz51]

Hello @outlander 💖

[Emelia8]

Oh yes please @Shaz51 would really appreciate that. Thank you. @outlander 

[Shaz51]

🥐🥨🍟🍔☕☕🍕 @Emelia8 , @outlander 

[outlander]

Hello @Shaz51

[outlander]

@Emelia8 i wish life was easier and better for you. Im sorry you have to go through so much. Here for you too 💜

[Shaz51]

Heyyy My sister @outlander 🐎🐴🌻🌻💐🐴🐎☕💖

[Peri]

Dear @Emelia8 ,

try not to focus on the Tatts, they are tiny I have them too and they will fade I don’t see them now days. Also the scars and distortion to the boob sort of settle over time.  I see them as triumph over the cancer.. I am so glad that I worked through my treatment only having time off for surgery.  It gave me something else important to focus on and I really didn’t think about the cancer or the treatment too much. What bothered me most was when every other woman in the hospital where I worked who had ever had breast cancer wanted to come and talk to me about their treatment and everything, they really go to me.  

So I hope me talking about my history with it has not pissed you off.

happy Christmas Em. 

Love peri

[Anastasia]

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@Emelia8 wrote:

I feel so unsettled, anxious, fidgety, hyper, restless, edgy, tense and wound up like an overstretched spring. Everything seems so hopeless right now, and I cannot see a better future. Only worse, ever worse.

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Oh Em...sending you gentle squeezy hugs. I'm sorry you were feeling like that. How are you feeling today? @Emelia8 

[Anastasia]

@Emelia8 

[Emelia8]

Still feeling the same today @Anastasia 😟  But the gigantic hug helps just a little. 🌹

Thank you my dear friend 💞

Thank you @Peri . Yes I know what you say is probably right. But its just so hard to see that from where I'm at right now. 💖

Everything just seems so pointless and hopeless at present. I know I need to change my negative mindset, but I need help to do that. I dont know when I can get to see my psych. I dont currently have an apt since she cancelled my last one. I feel very precarious, teetering on the edge and about to fall. And I dont have a safety net to catch me.

Thanks also @Shaz51 @outlander for being here last night, and @RICH1 for your check-in email. 🌷

I will be okay, its just ... life feels too hard sometimes I guess. I have thoughts creeping back into my thinking ... but I wont act upon them. I cant. 😔

Emelia 🌷