Thanks everyone, and my apologies for lack of response of late.
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I'm okay I guess ... just very down.
Not even sure why, as I feel I should be much better than I am.
I have finally been given clearance to drive again. Which, after 10 weeks of not being able to, is great. I have a little bit of independence again. Able to get out and look for a home again. My pain levels are much reduced now too, which is a great relief. Surgical wounds still give me some grief on occasion, but on the whole are pretty good. Using some of that supposedly magic BioOil on my massive scars to try to reduce the unsightliness of them. But there again, nobody sees them except me, so who cares?
I needed to have a bone density scan yesterday, which my oncologist ordered. My previous xray for my surgeon in December showed some bone deterioration which could adversely affect the healing of the bone grafts in my spinal fusion. As I had feared, the cancer treatment I have had to undergo, and am still going through (radiation therapy 2 years ago, and ongoing medication), may come back to bite me in other areas. I'm just hoping that the bone scans don't show too much deterioration in the past 2 years. The good thing is that I started at a very high benchmark. But unfortunately radiation has a very adverse affect on bones, as does the medication I need to be on, in an attempt to keep the cancer from returning. So that is all weighing heavily on me right now.
I am due for new xrays to check my spinal fusion in a couple of weeks time. It should be showing good signs of fusion (healing) by then. It is almost 3 months now since my operations, and bone grafts usually heal by that stage, fully healed by 6 months.
Even though I am now permitted to drive, I am still not doing much. I have looked at a couple of houses. Still getting groceries delivered though. But now school is back, I may venture out and do an occasional live shop. Will see how I go. My surgeon has approved for me to commence an outpatient day rehab program at my local hospital. I started last week. It is 3 hours twice a week and is under the care of a post surgery spinal rehab specialist, physiotherapist and exercise physiologist. Consists of specific gym exercises and hydrotherapy devised specifically for me. Something to get me out of the house I guess. Because other than that, I basically do nothing. Not much of an existence really.
I am eating okay now, but haven't yet gained any weight. Trying to eat plenty of red meat and leafy greens to boost my iron levels. The blood loss during my surgery and resulting severe anaemia is still having an affect on my health. So I am taking an iron supplement to try to get it back up to an acceptable level. But I am still getting quite dizzy and weak. I guess it will take time.
In two days time it will be a year since I had to put my sweet little Holly to sleep. Such a difficult day that was. I miss her so much, every single day. She was my baby. I still wake up in the middle of the night sometimes, and feel for her, wondering why she isn't beside me. Then remember ... and cry. The sooner I find a new home, and am able to find a new puppy to adopt, the better for me I think. I need that.
