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08-05-2016 12:27 AM
08-05-2016 12:27 AM
10 year Psychosis
I have Bipolar 1. I'm medicated but recectly one of my medications started actually working. My anti psycotic. I didn't realise I was psychotic until I wasn't anymore. 6 weeks into taking my medication, my delusion left ( I'd been experiencing it for 1 or 2 years) and that was it. I thought I must have just snapped out of it because there was no other changes. I also didn't think too much of the fact that I had been dilusional for almost 2 years. But then a week ago, almost 6 months from my last change, I suddenly started feeling in touch with reality, my thoughts weren't jumbled, my view on the world had literally changed, my shoulders weren't sore anymore, my paranoia had gone, my emotions weren't flat anymore and I actually smiled and expresed my emotions but then the biggest change came. The "noise" in my head I'd always assumed was thoughts left. I told my mum ( who has studied psycology) and she immediately made me watch this video of a virtual reality simulation of psycosis. As soon as the voices started I just burst out in tears because it was like they had come back. I'll describe my experience with these sounds. They were always layered over each other, there was usually no clear message, I describe it like static on a radio. Once in a while that radio would tune in to a channel for a second and I'd hear a word or a sentence before it returned to whispers that seemed like screams and words all layered over each other. My voice, my internal monologue, would speak over the top of all of this noise and I would often have extreme trouble concentrating. I grew up thinking that they were a part of me. Do any of you relate to this or have you had a similar expreience? Am I schizoaffective.....or do any other bipolar people experience non-stop psychosis? Thanks! (sorry, my spelling is probably aweful)
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08-05-2016 09:02 AM
08-05-2016 09:02 AM
Re: 10 year Psychosis
I haven't experienced non-stop pyschosis but I have in some of depressive episodes.
I can relate directly to the relief you felt when taking an anti-psychotic. It just all falls away and it feels so much calmer.
Happy for ya mate.
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08-05-2016 09:59 AM
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08-05-2016 10:32 AM
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Re: 10 year Psychosis
Hi @universepocket, welcome to the forum. I'm bipolar and take an anti-psychotic, which has proved very effective over recent years at treating mainly anger. That problem I had was to a degree that might sometimes be considered psychotic, though never violent. The medication has changed my life and certainly helped me become much calmer. I kind of relate to what you say about mental static and I also get ringing in the ears (which could be tinnitus rather than mental health related). But my 'inner monologue' has a stronger voice most of the time and can rise above these things. Unfortunately my inner monologue is often unkind to me and I still suffer paranoia and social anxiety. I am working on these with psychological counselling. It's great to hear that you are in a much better place than you were. Best wishes for you now going from strength to strength.
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08-05-2016 04:08 PM - edited 08-05-2016 04:10 PM
08-05-2016 04:08 PM - edited 08-05-2016 04:10 PM
Re: 10 year Psychosis
@universepocket I have the same static and layering of voices and the way you described it how some words may be picked up but its hard to hear them all as they are layering over each other. I also have the same trouble concentrating and always have growing up. I was the same like you I thought this was just normal or how I was a part of me. Yes I have as you have described in my head and my diagonsies is schizoaffective, which means both bipola and schizophrenia.
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08-05-2016 06:00 PM
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08-05-2016 07:59 PM
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Thank YOU for firstly posting your story in this thread. You are the first person I have "met" that describes it as static like a radio and depending on the frequency you can heard some words come up. When you described it the way you have written my jaw dropped because that is how I descibe it to other people too.
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08-05-2016 09:46 PM
08-05-2016 09:46 PM
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Wow. Your post has blown me away. You descriptions were spot on. I'm schizoid affective - that's all i have been told. And like yourself for years just assumed that everyone else had all that noise and radio like transmissions in their head. I'm medicated - but only just. I'm still hearing 'things' - just the volume control has been turned down. Gets worse/louder at night esp after 1am >. For me it's not so much voices but slamming sounds like drawers being slammed hard in my head or even erratic piano music.
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09-05-2016 11:45 AM
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