@peace 

It sounds like you are going through a really tough bit, Try not to be too hard on yourself tho, i know it is easy to do, when we get like that, to start really getting stuck into ourselves because we are struggling.

Also i have never viewed you as being weak or pathetic, i have only ever seen strength and a strong character, someone who is much appreciated here, and whose comments have always been sincere and honest.

I know that feeling of feeling like you have lost a job, i went through that quite a few times in the last couple of years, i found it helped for me, it all depends on how you feel, but it helped for me to sit down with my boss, and explain to him what i was going through........ it was extremely difficult, but he asked me how he could help, and we worked out a few things.

Like i said it was something that helped me, i am not saying you should do it, but it might help?

I hope you are feeling better