Haha @Phoenix_Rising 🙂 I think I sit somewhere in the middle of needing hugs and needing not hugs here in the virtual ocean, so it suits me really well to have both. I just wrote this whole big thing about touch then realised I headed straight back into trauma land and would have possibly dragged others there too, so I deleted it. But I can empathise with how touch can be so significant.

I'm off to spend the last little non-fish time I have crocheting. I've been dealing with the real estate since my last post. Apparently I broke the heater when I cleaned it because I used too much water. Funny that. I didn't clean the heater beyond dusting the tiny bit I can get to. I wouldn't ever use water on an electrical appliance either. And I'm thinking that to actually break a heater, even if I was bonkers enough to use water on it, I would have had to pour a whole flipping bucket IN THE SILLY THING!!! But of course, it's my fault and not the fact that the heater is 22 years old and probably has never been serviced.

With all this fear, threat, blaming, aggression and our safety and security resting in the hands of a powerful man, I may as well be back in that relationship. At least I knew what lurked behind those dark corners then. Until the time I didn't see it coming and life went ka-boom I suppose. I'm saying hi to my messy head back in trauma land brain again here. Blegh. It will pass.