Haha i was thinking the same thing about the adoption... i just didn't wanna mention it and be out of place... my real mum will be cool with that (smiles ) the dog is kelpie x border collie and the cat is tortoise is color. Kind of white under belly with brown and golden and black stripes. The kittens are mainly black and white with patches of brown.

Talking illness now @Former-Member i have noticed i am very split minded about everything. My life is a result of being confronted with many decisions to make. Reality vs expectation. The double bind. Etcetera. Torn in two between moral and immoral. Right and wrong. Should i or shouldn't i... love and fear... it sounds silly but it happens many times throughout each day. Some examples are. Too smoke or not too smoke? Too drink or not too drink? Too do drugs or not too do drugs? Too walk or not too walk? Every decision has a repercussion... it's almost like my mind tends to lean too one side all of the time. Which leaves me in a predicament and a double bind (split mind ) -positive and negative. And the results determine my psychical and mental health, wellbeing and status. And determine how well i do in life and how able i am too. Provide myself with what i need and want.

The good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between. Always contemplating the flipside. Successful vs failure. Health vs sickness. Life vs death. Poverty vs wealth. Heaven vs hell. Selfishness vs selflessness. Serving vs receiving.

Just try to work it all together and point myself in a positive direction. And do well.

Any way i think you get the point...

I cooked up a nice big savory mince / spaghetti sauce yesterday. Plenty of vegetables, flavors, spices and some meat. A few tins of tomatoes. Some to tomatoe paste. Salt, sugar, pepper etcetera. On a bed of pasta or mash with grated cheese on top. Is rather yummy and very healthy.

I also like lambs fry. Do you know what that is? Having it with mash, beans, peas or broccoli works a treat it's a real health booster. I got a great way of making it if you wanna know just ask.

The garden is doing it's thing. Struggling like me i suppose. Going through good and day times. Got little bits and pieces of everything out there. I can make a list for you if you want? And you might get some ideas for yourself. The pinnacle of my garden will be when the Chinese elm tree is fully grow and i have a garden bench under it's branches and i can sit out there on a hot summers day and be in the cool shade. And in winter have a small fire and have a beer or wine and cook a snag.

Now too get on with the day... not sure what too do from here. Here come the decisions lol.

I know what you talking about when you say. Expectations are too high. I been told the same thing. I missed many an opportunity because my expectations were too high. Only to get lost in a dream like fantasy world revolved around woman i could never have. It's probably all too common.

Eudemonism