Hi @Mazarita

I've been in your position many a time. Showers don't always happen. Isn't that what deodorant and perfume are for? I've gone through periods where I've gone to work, come home and straight to bed fully clothed, got up put on deodorant, perfume and clesn clothing and gone back to work. I've done this for embarrassingly long periods. So what? It's not the end of the world.

I agree with others that you appear to be undertaking too many things at once that are placing yourself under what would be excessive stress for me.

Rome wasn't built in a day but it certainly can be destroyed in less than a day. I find it easier on me to deal with one issue at a time
It's significantly less stressful and tends to be more successful. I call it looking after myself.

The homework you've been given by your psychologist is quite a daunting list. I wouldn't even attempt to do all that because I would be the one that ends up paying the price. If you feel that you don't have a satisfactory connection with your current psychologist don't be afraid to find and try another one. I've finally found a youngish man who has helped me enormously. Mores to the point, I can't pull the wool over his eyes as I've been able to do previously. This is a good thing for Kurra.

Be kind to yourself. Consider your needs and do what you think will help you along the road to recovery and what will help you find greater stability.
Hugzzz