Running

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

Flashback

[Jynx]

@avant-garde here for you hun 💜🫂

[avant-garde]

TW: torture

Content/trigger warning

I know where the burns came from... it didn't click before... it clicks now... not where I thought they came from

@Jynx it's so much, it's so so so much

*shakes in the corner violently*

[Jynx]

If this is a new realisation it's possible you've gone into shock @avant-garde 

I'm so sorry that happened to you 😞

Wanna take a few deep breaths, check in with what you might be needing right now? 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

This is new

[Jynx]

@avant-garde here for you hun 💜

Do you mean the flashbacks are new? 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

No, new realisation

I feel sick, alone and like nobody could ever understand what happened to me so there's no point reaching out to anyone in my life because they'll just make me worse

[Jynx]

@avant-garde it seems to be a big theme in your life at the moment hey hun? Not feeling like anyone can understand your experiences is a wholly isolating experience, and that sense of isolation is like physical pain. It is entirely valid to be experiencing such immense despair about this hun 🥺

🫂🫂🫂

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

It's always been like this, I just gave up telling people because they failed to help and that just made it worse. 

Why did he do it Jynx? Why did my dad hate me so much to do this?

[Jynx]

@avant-garde not sure that's a question I can answer hun. Maybe it's a question that doesn't have any kind of answer that will satisfy...