Edge of insanity: for real

[Stout]

In an effort to silence me Victoria Police turned up to my flat and smashed my head into the concrete. I could have been killed.

They called this an "arrest". Said they were serious.

Gee wiz, after ten years I should have gotten the message. Just as well I bare a label and can be dismissed under the cover of the mental health register.

[Stout]

I did the calculations: 360 kg force over one metre. Enough to crush an old man's skull.

Lucky I don't have osteoporosis.

[Stout]

So I'm wondering again what happened to me after I was extricated from the skool yard. I was mentally fine, and was looking forward to heading home. I think there are procedural questions surrounding this.

TW: Anti-psychotic injection experience

Content/trigger warning

Did the ward staff knowingly inject me with a dangerous drug. Is it dangerous to use a powerful antipsychotic on an individual, when no psychosis exists? What are the ramifications? Are Suicides linked to improper care and deliberate malpractice? Does the MIC hide this morbidity factor.

For me, depression was strong, nightmares abundant, SI prevelant. The feel of death. And very poor will and motivation. My mind was dark and fragmenting.

I was not like this prior to extrication, recently.

There must be qualified medical person here whom would know.

Consult my doctor. Yeah na

[tyme]

Hey @Stout ,

I'm hearing how difficult these circumstances are and I'm sorry you have had to experience it with limited support around understanding what was happening.

I hear you have a lot of questions, but I'm not sure members are able to provide clarity around your procedural questions.

Rather, members can only provide recounts of their own experiences as this is a peer-to-peer support platform.

But please know, you are being heard.

[Stout]

Thanks @tyme 

Understood.

I immensely appreciate being hosted and supported here on SANE.

As an un-person on the mental health register I am shocked and dismayed at the institutional callousness I have been subjected to in the past ten years. For example over the past few years I reached out to Victoria Police for matters, and to this day I haven't been asked a single question. I made multiple submissives to the State. But oh no, don't you see boy, your no good. It's like they all look out their window to the rose garden and think 'nothing to see here's. It is pure psychological warfare.

A state of affairs where VicPol can be completely dismissive.

I know I wouldn't be the only one. I could go public with it, but where.

It's like the registered has multiple uses.

Anyway I am cognisant of SANE. And appreciate any understandings.

For me it has been all about the invisible State.

I would ask for internal support from SANE, but I have my own for now. But the universe has plenty of tricks up it's sleeve. When you're set up, it's permanent and insoluble. A bitter pill.

[Stout]

So what it all amounts to is that for the rest of my old life I am in a legal-medical standoff with the politically allegiant VicPol.

God help me next time.

[Stout]

Because I have a minor mental illness, VicPol can rule out stalkers in my life.

For example, stalker objects don't exist. I didn't look at my Tyers on the car park four days ago. The next day I didn't get a screw on the same tyre. Today I didn't get new tyers, and there wasn't a peice of chalk in the driveway when I got back before. In their station VicPol can see this is all an illusion.

Moreover, they can tell you all this hasn't been going on for years.

You see it's all  a parallel universe psychotic delusion thing.

There is no such thing as stalkers, nor their contextual objects.

Simples stout.

[tyme]

Hey @Stout ,

I'm sorry to hear this is happening.

As you post on the forums, I'm wondering, what sort of support are you looking for on the forums?

We read the struggles you are experiencing and it sounds incredibly difficult. 

How can we shine a light on your experiences towards a having a more recovery focus? Do you have any ideas?

[Stout]

I don't know @tyme 

What can I say. My story is horrible, to be PC.

I've had nowhere to go in all this, and no proper support or the ear of authorities. I know I'm pushing it on the forum. 

But when it's all boiled down, it is a mental health and safety issue. I am a member of society and ....

If they listened long ago I wouldn't be on here.

I have to say though, doing this does stir up the minds 3F principle.

[Stout]

im happy to leave though, I've said a bit. If Sane wants to tidy up.