not coping

[tyme]

Hey @outlander ,

Even in all your pain, you still think of others. The credit really goes to you.

I also recognise and agree with what you said that you are usually a very optimistic person. Yet I can see things are really very hard at the moment.

I know you don't often ask for help, so when you do, you really need it.

Is there anything you can think of that the forum community can assist you with?

We want you to know that you are not alone.

tyme

[creative_writer]

@outlander, I hope work goes okay for you. Baking treats sounds like a lovely way to end the day. What kind of treats are you baking?

Volunteering for a homeless shelter is very thoughtful. I am sure they will appreciate you being there 💖

[Snowie]

I'm sure the people tomorrow will love the gestures @outlander and be thankful that you are helping.

It's good that you can get some time off from you pop. I know you'll be busy but still a nice change.

[outlander]

@tyme @creative_writer

i havent volunteered for a homeless shelter before so itll be a new experience for me esp with the larger numbers. ive done some volunteering before but its smaller numbers or ive been behind the scenes. the last big event i volunteered for was a festival though and that really was a challange but i was with someone more experienced and guided me through the experience abit so it turned out ok.


@tyme it is really hard right now. for me to ask for help offline or to even consider time in hospital it needs to be pretty bad.
i am in a fair bit of pain but i cant really do anything about it which is the hardest part.
there has been alot of changes the last few weeks in particular, its been very stressful. the job loss has caught me off guard as i had just given up all my other jobs for this company. and then the client has passed so this weekend is really the last weekend out of the 2 weeks that ill have any work now. i have transferred to a new company but they can really only offer me 12-16 hours which isnt really enough to live. i either have to speak to the company again after chirstmas and see what extra hours i can do or ill have to go back to the very toxic environment which is the last thing i want to do and it will only make my mental health decline even more.
im just so very tired and i have no motivation or will to live life.

[outlander]

@creative_writer im making some choc chip cookies, some chocolate brownies with white chocolate chips and some chocolate cupcakes with various toppings (like coconut, flake, mini m&ms and also strawberries) im also making a small fruit and deli platter as well to go with breakfast

[outlander]

i dont get invited to any family christmas events anymore but ive decided to not go anymore when im only excluded anyway @Snowie if i wasnt volunteering i wouldve just been sitting at home by myself anyway so better to help others then wollow in my own negativity i guess

[tyme]

I'm hearing you @outlander 

There's just so much movement at a very unpredictable time of year. 

Is there any opportunity that you apply for NDIS? I'm not sure if you are eligible. 

It sounds like you are doing everything you can. You also have pop to worry about.

Would you try reaching out to your family again?

Please take care. I'm here if you need any support.

[outlander]

no way would i ever reach out to family ever again @tyme its only led to bad things in the past.

i have started an NDIS application but because of christmas and new years most of the specialists are away so i cant actually apply till prob the end of next month when i can speak to the specialists. ive managed to get 2 supporting letters so far. the company i use to help with my own supports when i need and can afford to which now wont be for a while, they offerred to writr a letter of support from a carers perspective as well based on the support sessions ive had across the time of the medical treatments

[Snowie]

Being around toxic people can be hard too @outlander Sometimes it is better not to be there, for our own sake.

It's good that you can acknowledge that siting at home by yourself isn't the best thing either. 

[tyme]

I'm sorry to hear you don't get invited to christmas events @outlander . Yet you still look after your siblings and help?

I don't get invited but only because I don't celebrate christmas. I can only imagine how hard it is to feel like an outsider and not be invited. 

As a borderline, not being invited was very triggering for me. Not anymore, because I don't make time to go to things... but I do remember a time when I felt rejected like I was an outcast....

hugs @outlander 

This can be your forums family.