just struggling

[Mazarita]

Good to hear from you again, @Former-Member. Sorry you are feeling so low - very understandable. It's a great thing that you are managing to get through stuff you need to attend to. I've always liked the managability of small apartments (it's also mostly all I've been able to afford over my life as a renter). Sounds like a good option since it's a safer place to be, but I get your issues with it being temporary. Maybe keeping the diet simple at this time is not such a bad thing but, yes, encouraging yourself to eat is really important for mental as well as physical needs. I've been neglecting the breathing exercises a bit lately but lay on the bed for a while tonight doing measured breathing (count of four on the in-breath, count of six on the out-breath, to slow things down inside). I know from your past posts that this kind of thing sometimes works for you too. Also, even if these things are only temporarily relieving, I hope that at least all of us here listening with you is in some way reassuring.

[CherryBomb]

Hey @Former-Member

I just want to offer you a virtual hug. 

You are so strong. Strength to me is being vulnerable, sticking out rough time and not glossing over how much it stinks. 

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I'm sending you a hug. 

CB

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Jacques

Thank you @Mazarita yes, i should do some breathing too, i seem to have forgotten all of the stuff that i need to do to get through this. it is helpful that people are listening. im tired of being alone in my life.

[Former-Member]

thank you @CherryBomb

[Appleblossom]

Just saying hello .. thinking of you ... take it easy ..

[hiddenite]

Hi lj I'm sorry things are so difficult at the moment. I am thinking of you and sending a big hug.

Today is a new day the sun is up and the birds are singing,  I hope things improve.

Take care

Karen

[Former-Member]

Thank you @hiddenite it's been really hard.

I'm feeling so overwhelmed tonight there is a lot going through my head that won't stop and I'm so angry with myself for not being stronger. I let this whole situation happen again because I just freeze up when I'm scared. Feeling pathetic.
Lj

[NikNik]

Hi @Former-Member

I haven't been on in a few days - so am only just getting up to speed with what's going on. It seems like A LOT has been happening; no wonder you feel overwhelmed.

I'm not entirely sure what's happened, but from what I can gather, you are being really unfair on yourself to feel any sense of fault in what's going on. I know we use that phrase "be kind to yourself" frequently, but I really mean it.

It's not your fault.

You have taken action and shown courage in moving - and everything you have said here seems like you are a brave woman.

That's not to say there isn't to be any overwhelm or a lot to deal with - but being kind to yourself will help to manage all of those details.

"Independant" doesn't mean you do things by yourself - it means you take responsibility for yourself and you have done that. No one does it alone.

On that note, we are here for you and you are not alone.

(sorry if I was a bit firm in that post... It's out of passion, because I just admire you so much)

Nik

[Former-Member]

Thanks @NikNik

I'm just feeling like everything is just too much, things are so hard. I just wish i could find a way to make my life actually go right without anyone hurting us but seems like i attract this crap back again and again. i'm just exhausted... really need some sleep.

[NikNik]

Totally understand - I hope you can get some sleep.

You know we're here if you need some support and the other crisis services if you can't sleep and things escalate.

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or crisis chat

Suicide Call Back: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

and of course you're welcome to keep on posting here if it's helpful for you

Take care