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[Historylover]

continuing... I. am to go in front of a tribunal in 9 days. I have to say why they don't need to detain me. They (3 of them) will say why it's  necessary and I have to say why it's unnecessary. All I need is ACTUAL help instead of platitudes and empty promises which is the reason I took this step.

I am advised that I have a delusion disorder but I need to know which so that I can counter with argument and evidence.

[Historylover]

continuing... @chibam, they have to tell me why they consider it necessary to detain me. They said I have a delusional disorder. He wouldn't be more specific. I later realized how cleverly evasive he had been. I need that information to be able to counter their argument and provide evidence. So, later, I requested an extra moment and anticipated that he would try to avoid me. I sat where he would pass by, but he exited by another door and now has the weekend to prepare. And I can't prepare my defence until I have had the delusion identified. 

P.S. This is for a Mental health Tribunal hearing.

Tall poppy

[NatureLover]

Hi @Historylover , I've just come across this thread and read through all of it...am so sorry you were in such a dark place as to attempt suicide 😢

Am also sorry that you feel so trapped and victimised. I really hope they tell you on Monday the exact name of what they have diagnosed you with...surely that is only fair!

Sending you best wishes 🤞

[Historylover]

It's like going to court, charged with a crime, but they won't let you prepare your defence by keeping your  'crime' a secret.

I didn't want to 'go', @NatureLover, but when you can't get help despite your most determined efforts, and there are no good experiences to obliterate your bad memories and experiences, there is no joy in staying.

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[Historylover]

My actual diagnosis is C-/PTSD, but they can't treat it, they can just support me while I heal, and help me gain a firmer footing. But that is MY OWN diagnosis. I seem to be the only one who knows what they are talking about..

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[Appleblossom]

@Historylover Just got your notification. 

I did not realise you were older than me.  Congrats to you on getting to a good old age despite all the challenges in life.  And staying the course. I am glad your organs are alright after your attempt, that at least is one area of non suffering.  I try and crowd at my grief in times of anniversary dates ... with activities.  I know you are good at structuring things.

Standing for you on the sidelines, with your tribunal hearing.  Have you ever had one before? They have a selected "community" member, a medical and a legal member.  Its pretty intimidating and the outcome can be ongoing, but I am wishing you the best. Ask for that support at home. Keeping a long term focus may help. I am glad you have @chibam as a friend and others here on the forum.

[holdinghope5]

@Historylover , unfortunately, your posts have been removed as they do not align with Community Guidelines - they may hinder the help-seeking of others.

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