Struggling to Survive

[Maggie]

@Zoe7 Goodnight. Thinking of you.

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi @Zoe7,

I'm just dropping by to let you know that I am thinking about you right now.

[Zoe7]

The air surrounding me seems thicker – there is a feeling of heaviness all around, weighing me down. I can’t move – I can’t breathe – I am powerless. Numbness turns to fear as darkness descends. There is no fight left.

The shadows of the past envelope me and draw out my will to live. My heart continues to beat, heavy inside my chest. With each beat the pain continues to circulate throughout my body. Peace from this torment does not come. With each breathe I draw in more memories and the pain is compounded. I want this to end – I want it to be over. I don’t want to think, I don’t want to feel and I don’t want to continue to exist like this. Life feels hopeless and I feel insignificant in this world. I am alive but not living - and that is no way to be!

[Maggie]

@Zoe7 Listening and hearing you. Standing with you. You are not alone. Warm wishes.

[Zoe7]

I can't keep doing this @Maggie it is too hard! I don't even know what is 'real' anymore!

[Pepsimax]

I'm here for you @Zoe7 love you if you're still awake I can chat

[Maggie]

@Zoe7 We are here. Just keep breathing, deep breaths. We care when you can't.

[Maggie]

@Zoe7 I was told about the conditions that lotus flowers grow in not so long ago. Murky muddy dark waters, but look what comes through.

[Former-Member]

hugs @Zoe7

[Shaz51]

Hugs @Former-Member, @Zoe7