@CheerBear How do I feel anything except self hatred and shame, when the objective reality is that no one can stand being around me irl. Not even on the phone!!!!!! I annoy EVERYBODY. Everyone ends up using an angry/frustrated/annoyed voice, but no one will take the time to explain to me how to not be...well...me. Everyone just leaves!!!!! I'm 40 years old!!!!! I am so super open to learning, if someone would just explain, but no one does. They just leave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss K. I miss K so so SO much. My turtle whisperer ended up not being a turtle whisperer. She ended up just getting frustrated. K truly could translate between aspie and neurotypical. I know that if I could have kept working with her, she could have helped me to make sense of the world. It hurts so so SO much that my turtle whisperer offered to help me in my muddle, but has now just become another person who walked in and then walked out again. Everybody leaves, CheerBear. EVERYBODY leaves. 
@CheerBear you are my best not-friend in the whole world too. It's weird isn't it...on the one hand I superly duperly wish you were here irl, but on the other hand, all the evidence indicates that if you were here irl, you wouldn't be here for long. So really, it is much better that we are not-friends in Forum Land.
I feel so utterly destroyed again, CheerBear. You know, I could start becoming phobic of posting on the DBT thread because it is starting to seem that every time my brain starts to heal just enough for me to be able to focus on the next bit of the DBT adventure, I get smashed again. At least I get to do lots of role-modelling of what it actually looks like to ride the waves of big feelings, I guess. 
@CheerBear Giggle. Maybe you can start counting down when we get to twenty - you can use all your fingers and toes then. 
Waves to @Former-Member who is hiding under the like button.
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